Quote from: glendagladwitch on July 11, 2008, 09:49:47 PMQuote from: Elwood on July 11, 2008, 05:02:15 PMIs this your first time seeing a therapist? Because surgery isn't going to be talk right away. I've been undergoing therapy for about 5 months and they won't even really talk about HRT.
Holy crap! Get a new therapist!
For serious?
Well, they don't want to rush transition with me... I'm 18, so they believe (for the same reason I have to fight for a hysterectomy) that I'll "regret it later." Now, eventually, I'll become more assertive. I'm an adult and I can make that decision for myself. But I don't feel an urgent rush... I think that's the only reason we haven't started T. I don't see the need to hurry.
Also, my mother... I'll be seeing her in August. If I started T now, things would be horrendous. I'd prefer to start AFTER that... but I will see her again in December. Makes things a little tight... then I'd probably see her again in the spring, then maybe the summer, then the next December... I can't keep waiting to please her. I've got to transition some time... but I just turned 18 in March. I may be a legal adult, but I am still just a dumb kid. I'm not ready for that decision, no matter how sure I am. Sometimes that's how life is, and I've got to be mature and accept that...
Now, currently I'm with a
counselor. She
can't talk about HRT. But hopefully soon she'll refer me to a therapist. If she doesn't, I'll seek one out on my own. See, I was with a therapist in southern California, then moved to northern. The state is so big, that the two divisions are separate, so I had to start over. Technically, I've only seen a counselor ONCE up here, so that may explain some of my struggle. I have to start all over... tell them about my self harm, my struggles, the specifics of my condition, etc... It may be another 5 freakin' months of work. I just don't know what to do. And when the time DOES come and I go to visit my mother and step father, will they even let me into the house? They are very against this. I may have to leave them forever.