22 years of confusion, 3 months of learning

[Aiden]

LOL nope, not related to Hizmom.   Though she seems like a pretty cool mom.

[J.T.]

I tend to be Overly Sensitive Emotionally,

I was too... and i'd cry when i was frustrated/angry.  not sad.  it sucked 'cause people told me to stop crying and i said "i can't help it".  all that crap is over with now.  my moods have been really stable since i stopped living a lie and was honest with myself.

i can definitely identify with what you've said.  welcome to susan's.

[Aiden]

Thanks     I'm still struggling with a lot of things though.  Sometimes, I feel like a child.  I didn;t really get much support growing up, in fact was often put down a lot, and never really had the nurturing most mothers give their children.  I think in some ways that is why the desire of comfort is still there, as it was something I didn;t have when was a young child at age needed it.  Makes me feel like a wuss, but it's there along with the insecurity and difficulty with self esteme, the bitterness and anger towards growing up with someone always making me feel in adiquite.

Sorry. It's just something that bugs me...  and being almost incapable of letting hurt go doesn;t help.

[J.T.]

it makes sense that you didn't grow up... i think a lot of us have that in common.  a lot of us never had the chance to grow up.  i know i didn't 'til now.  i missed my teenage years it feels like.

you're not alone.

[Aiden]

Sometimes I wonder if my teenage years started when I was 20.  Dono, it's been a long road and the amount of conflict I have now makes me feel like I started my teen years late.  Because before 19 I think I was still like a child.  Took moving to big city in PA to get me to experience things enough to grow.