Various FtM Questions!

[Dante]

I'm hoping that I can become "level-headed." I suffer from "female hysteria," practically (look it up on Wikipedia, lol). So I really have a tough time being level-headed and mature. I'm freaking out. I'm in panic. My body's wrong and that makes me scared of myself. Ashamed. Disgusted, even. And I keep feeling inferior and unable. I keep thinking that I'm never going to make it. That fear is taking over... plus my panic disorders just make me shake and stutter in the office when I'm speaking to a therapist.

"Fear leads to the Dark side of the Force, young Padawan." Sorry, I couldn't resist; I just finished watching all the Star Wars movies for the first time over the past week. But anyway, I feel the same; like I'm not important, and that I'm getting nowhere. I'm hanging by a thread, though.

[Arch]

But anyway, I feel the same; like I'm not important, and that I'm getting nowhere. I'm hanging by a thread, though.

You can't always progress. Sometimes ya gotta just gress.

Keep hanging in there. We're all pulling for you.

[Aiden]

Here's a question...  Is there some way to hide wide hips?  lol

[Dante]

Good question.   

[Aiden]

My mom's side cursed me with wide hips

[Mister]

Yes.  Wear wide boxy clothing.  Wear your pants low on your hips.  Do anything you can to make yourself look like a walking rectangle.  My hips nearly melted away 6 months or so into testosterone.

[Elwood]

Hip fat can go away. Hip bones do not.

Posted on: August 10, 2008, 11:41:36 AM

I'm hoping that I can become "level-headed." I suffer from "female hysteria," practically (look it up on Wikipedia, lol). So I really have a tough time being level-headed and mature. I'm freaking out. I'm in panic. My body's wrong and that makes me scared of myself. Ashamed. Disgusted, even. And I keep feeling inferior and unable. I keep thinking that I'm never going to make it. That fear is taking over... plus my panic disorders just make me shake and stutter in the office when I'm speaking to a therapist.

I know exactly how you feel, Elwood. I sometimes get so frightened I cry or pass out. Then when I calm down it's a wave of shame followed by a few 'why can't I do this?'s and 'why did I do that?'s? I also suffer panic attacks. My lungs close up, I get dizzy, my body goes numb, and I've lost consciousness a few times. You're not alone. 'Female hysteria' is everywhere! Even lurking in the bravest of FTMs.

I do, however, have some questions of my own, while we're on the topic of fear. I hate needles. It's not just the pain source, I get extremely queasy at even a drop of blood. I was feeling light-headed at the video Jamie-o posted. ( Though, I must admit, it was quite informative and I'm glad to have watched it. ) I simply cannot deal with needles of any sort. I burst into tears and have been known to pass out. Can a therapist help me with this? It's not so much a fear of pain, I think it's more of a physical reaction. I've heard of people overcoming their fears countless times, but I've never heard of someone ridding themselves of nausea. Would a therapist really be able to help me with this? And - though many have already been listed - I'd like to know some other options besides injections. What's the safest one out there? Is there one that's both gradual and effective?

I love needles, and I love to have my blood drawn. It isn't a fetish or anything, but I find something exciting about it.

Therapists can help with phobias. They are perfectly curable.

I've heard people recommend gel as another method.

[Aiden]

Hip fat can go away. Hip bones do not.

Yeh what worries me is how much of it may be bone lol

[Mister]

Hip fat can go away. Hip bones do not.

Yeh what worries me is how much of it may be bone lol

I was worried as well.  My lady was kind enough to tell me last weekend that my hips are 'completely unable to be detected, even from the back.'  Only one way to find out.