Mine stopped gradually as my transition progressed.
The worst I ever got was when I began to plan how I would do it. I think the only thing that stopped me from trying was that I didn't want to devestate my spouse.
Life is actually pretty good right now although it wasn't for many instances in the past few years. The problem with depression is that it clouds the thinking, at least mine did, it made me think there's no hope - a false belief if ever there was one.
Hang in there, KylieLuv!
hugs & smiles
Emelye