Yeah, I would love to be a Financial Analyst on Wall Street, that's my dream.
As for T, I used to get REALLY really depressed about my body, almost to the point of self mutilation. My main goal was that I HAD to pass 100% and it killed me because there was no way I could start T. I had/have binders, but even though I'm a 32AA (I could wear a sports bra if I wanted) it still didn't seem like enough.
Then, I started hanging out in more GLBT places, which gave me some confidence because people treated me how I wanted to be treated. I think it really helps to be in accepting places. But, as you will hear MUCH about, I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world and I think he is the reason I'm comfortable with myself.He's a gay, bio-male and sees me as a gay bio-male, not an FTM. He completely accepts every thing about me, which gives me SO much confidence. When people stare in public, I don't think it's because they think I'm FTM like I used to. Now, I think it's because they can't believe two guys would hold hands in public in Texas. So, long story short, I discovered that as long as the people I care about treat me as who I truly am, I don't care NEAR as much about what the public thinks. Sure I want to pass, and I think I pass well enough to be thought of as a young man, but when I'm out with my boyfriend, he makes me confident, which is what I think makes a guy pass. Plus, the fact that the public sees us as two men gives me even more of a confidence boost.
Sorry that was so long lol
