I am having really horrible time right now. I forgot to renew my service dog's ID and which gave a bus driver who hates me and my dog grounds to finally succeed in kicking me off the bus route he drives. For crying out loud last month when he did the same, the ID was valid and he was forced to allow me travel. This time the police were ignorant, allowed the bus driver to discriminate against me for my disability and most likely made me miss my nephew's first birthday. I am feeling so angry and helpless right now. Part of me wants to start filing lawsuits in the morning and the other part just wants to sit and cry. I am just so tired, this is the third time this week the police had to be called and the first time they failed to protect my rights. I guess those are good odds but now I am missing my darlings birthday. I would have rather lost the fight over the bag of chips earlier in the week then this fight.
I guess I am really drained from everything that is already happening and going to happen that I feel like I don't have anything left to keep fighting. If it were winter time I would go and sit in the snow and just give up but doing that now would just mean I would be cold, sore and bored. I am not suicidal just tired. I was planning on having a quick break with my family to recharge my batteries that are already too low but now I don't even have that.
I just keep going over it in my head trying to figure out why nobody but me seems to give a damn about my rights. I wouldn't hesitate to stand up if I saw this happening to someone else but everyone always just looks the other way. I feel like I am surrounded by people who see everything but just don't care. Whats wrong with this world? Why can't people stand up for what they know to be right.
->-bleeped-<-boy
