I'm re-posting this as I think I put it in the wrong place and I was hoping for some feedback as I don't know where to turn.
Well, I saw both my psychiatrist and gender therapist and was able to stem the tide of downward spiral for the moment. My psychiatrsit ordered a fourth round of blood work to check my hormone levels again during this depression. The results confirmed a pattern we suspected. My testosterone was high for a male my age and my estradiol was 14 units higher than the high norm. That makes it the same as a women my age.
The two previous test also showed high levels in both but not this high. My first test 18 months ago showed the levels off the charts so we thought it was a mistake. Now we know that my levels are high and probably cyclical. No wonder I'm so confused, conflicted and depressed.
We are going to meet again this coming week to talk about treatment and I'm afraid she will want to reduce the estradiol levels and which I would raise the testosterone level more. Eck! I'd rather reduce the damn testoterone. We'll see.
Has anyone else experienced this? If so, how did it go? Was it better or worse?
