chick with a fade...

[Jasonk16]

Is what I was referred to as last night by an old friend.

He thought I was lying to him and when he saw me on cam he concluded that I wasn't her.
and that if I was to show him my chest to prove it.

If I thought like a guy showing that part of my body wouldn't be any form of problem, is what he told me.

Idk about you but I think that's just down right not right to expect from someone.


Also, I've heard a lot about trans murders which is kinda scaring me but another part is the whole job aspect.

Like it's hard enough to get a job, especially one that accepts you as you are. Then comes in the whole thing of keeping that job. 
I really need a job and I'm worried in this small as hell town it just won't happen.

Is it really as bad as they say it is?

Also, do you think it's safer to be open about being trans?
I really try to be stealth but it's so hard cause every just hears about it but I don't know about being like yeah I'm trans so what.

Never really tried that route...

Opinions?

[icontact]

What he said was incredibly manipulative.

I have not gotten to applying for jobs and such yet so I dunno about the work front.

But I do not plan to do anything but stealth. Nobody needs to know except extremely close friends of which I never seem to make, and lovers. I'd rather people get to know me, and then have to grapple with whether they should outcast me just for a small detail like that. I believe being open at this time is just asking for people to judge you based on your trans-ness.

[Jasonk16]

yeah its impossible for me to do that

in oregon everyone already knew me from when we were kids

and here is where my whole family lives and its such a small place so every found out before they could give me a chance and outkasted me right away.

i guess im just gonna have to wait to start fresh somewhere

its just hard having to let go of ppl sometimes but its life.

[Nero]

correct me if i misunderstood this part but - thinking like a guy has nothing to do with showing your tits or not. there are plenty of guys with gynocomastia who don't show their chest to anybody. pretty normal for a guy with tits to refuse to bare them.

[Mister]

I think it's hard when you're pre-everything.  You may feel this dramatic shift since you now ID as male, but it's not a visible difference to anyone else.  You look the same.  You sound the same.  People just don't get it and probably won't until you begin to pass as male.

[Jasonk16]

i do pass though
i even sound male
ive never really had a problem with my voice especialy now since im on t

but he didnt know i was trans
and then i told him and he thought i was playing a game with him so i let him see that i dont look like the girl i once was

so he tried saying that i was someone else not "her"(who i was before) and to prove that i was the same person he expected me to basically flash him

and being a bio guy and showing ur chest is completely diff then being trans guy with female parts and showing off ur chest
its something u hate that just makes u feel uncomfortable to begin with
it doesn mean ur cool with showing it to anyone

and either he didnt get that or he just isnt right in the head

i just feel bothered after the whole comment that he said he just sees a chick with a fade

after everything ive done im still just a girl to the world because of the parts i have

and when i got my hair cut for the first time it was a big thing to me >.<


anyways just rambling about the details

[Mister]

well, those are important details.

your friend is an idiot and not much of a friend.

[Elwood]

If I didn't have breasts, you can bet I'd have no problem showing him. He's kind of right. Most cisguys wouldn't have a problem with it... Transguys (guys who many people think are "really" girls) tend to be more shy about it, until they have surgery, of course.

I am scared of trans hate crimes myself. But I guess all I can to is be aware and protect myself.

I'm stealth. I may have to come out some day. I'm just staying stealth while I'm still figuring things out.