I may be broken but I'm not shattered.

[Sherue]

Hello everyone my name is Sherue I'm 20 years old.

I am a male to female transexual and am going to start my hormones as soon as I recover from the coma I was in.
        I recently came out of the closet to my cousin Amanda because we are like brother and sister and she accepted me with open arms and was excited to have another girl to hand out with. Well one day she called my Mom and told her about making plans on helping me with my transition and unfortunately I hadn't told my mom yet so she was furious and came to my house all pissed off. My mom is a overly religious woman and has anger issues so she came over condemning me to hell, calling me a ->-bleeped-<-got and finally snapped and just decided to beat the ->-bleeped-<- out of me while I was wearing glasses.
I ended up kicking her out of my apartment and felt very much pain in my right eye.
       At first I just thought it was a black eye but later it started to swell up and get infected. The hospital was always busy and just told me to set up an appointment for a few days later.over those next few days I couldn't open my eye, had massive migranes and felt dizzy almost 24/7. I told Amanda to take me to the hospital because I was in no condition to drive and said I'll leave the door unlocked while I'm getting ready. I don't remember much of that morning but as I walked into my living room to wait I just lost balance and everything faded to black.
       When I woke up I was very weak and couldn't move my arms or legs. later Amanda told me that I was out for 3 weeks and a shard of glass was lodged in my eye socket and the blood and puss was putting pressure on my brain even starting to crush it against the skull and knocked me out. Amanda found me on the floor and dragged me in the car and took me to the hospital. She said I was flat lining as they were operating on me but revived me and I flat lined again later for 4 minutes and almost died.
       After getting out of the hospital they said I might have slight brain damage but nothing too bad and I had reduced muscle mass and couldn't walk or move my arms much.Now I'm currently recovering and can roll around on my own. I damaged my vocal cords and can't talk still and forgot how to do some things like use a phone or write with a pencil even forgot some loved ones including my boy friend.Even though I forgot about him completly he is very supportive and caring, he must obviously love me for going through the trouble he has in helping me.

I hope to make some new friends over here and also hope this place is as kind and understanding as another site I belong to. hope to talk to you girls/guys later.^_^




Edited to remove personal info & request member place in signature line. -- Nichole

[cindybc]

Hi Sherue hon, welcome to Susan's, I can assure you that you won't have to wait long to make some friends here, and there are a good many girls your age and younger here as well.

Well I believe I can understand what it's like to have a religious fanatic in the family although she was not violent, my sister, she treats me like I am the family ghost or something, it wouldn't have surprised me if she would have held the crucifix in-front me. I also had who I use to call my evil ex from hell. Well anyway Today life is good and I pray that all will go well with you.

Cindy

[NicholeW.]

Welcome to Susan's, Sherue.

What a frightening experience. The bright side seems to be that you have really good support from Amanda and your boyfriend. I think you will find that to be a strength that you will appreciate more and more as time goes on. Not being alone in transition is a wonderful thing. Great.

Thanks for introducing yourself.

I edited your post to remove the YIM. Please refer to the Site Rules linked below. Number 6 is the Rule to especially note. You are allowed to place the removed info in your signature line. Have a nice stay with us; I'm looking forward to reading more about your life and transition.

Near-death experiences seem to often be a an avenue that opens for people to actually live into themselves rather than denying huge parts of themselves. I'm sorry for your hospitalisation, but it looks as if the experience has actually had a lot of value for you!! Wonderful!

Please take some time to read The Site Rules and on The Main Page you can discover Links, Chat and Wiki for your use as well. You might also want to go to the "Announcements" section and read the two posts "Post Ranks" and "Reputation Rules" to help you with some knowledge about when you can apply your own avatars, PM, and what those lil stars mean beneath all of our names and how to get them for yourself as well!!

It's great to have you here! Enjoy your stay.

Nichole

[Sherue]

I'm sorry Nichole I didn't think posting my YIM was against the rules but I guess every site is different and I'll check to see what else I am and am not allowed to do. Thanks for the comment anyway^_^

[daisybelle]

Did you press charges.... please do not be  victim and accept this type of abuse.  Stand up and let them know whether a man or a woman you are strong to the core.

I will say prayers for you and your well-being to my god who would not condone that type of abuse from a parent.

Good luck.

Daisy

[sarahb]

All I can say is...WOW! It still shocks me every time I hear about bad situations with parents. I just don't get how someone can be so blinded by their prejudice, faith, or any other thing to completely turn their back on their child and, in this case, cause such physical harm to them.

I'm sorry to hear about what you have gone through, and I hope that you will press charges against your mother. My philosophy is that if a family member can't get past their religious or moral biases and in turn don't treat you as family, then you need to treat them as such...not family. I hold some of my friends in much higher regard than some family members because in my opinion family is based on the bonds between the two people and not the blood they share. This experience has definitely shown you who your true loved ones are, your cousin and your boyfriend, and I'm happy to hear that you have them close to you right now for help and support.

There are a ton of great people here at this site and I hope you continue to post your experiences. You'll find plenty of support when you need it, as well as just being able to hang out and talk about whatever. I wish you the best in recovery and in your transition.

Take Care,
Sarah

[Alexandra]

Welcome!

I'm also inclined to suggest taking legal action.  Yes, she is your mother, but she's responsible for your medical bills and pain and suffering.

[Sherue]

At first I didn't want to press charges because I had a beaten wife mentality that she's still my mom and I shouldn't hurt her because of me. But later on my eyes were open by my online Friend Stellar (don't know if that's her real name) but as we talked about the incident and my mother the more she helped me notice how often my mom abused me and beat me and told me this is unacceptacle and should stay away from her because I'll get hurt again. My mom has been calling Amanda's house and I'm tempted to answer but I need to burn that bridge once and for all or there might not be a next time.

I want to press charges but the hospital bill left me pennyless and with out a job.So at the moment I'm just focusing on recovering and hopefully my voice will come back other wise when I finally do take her to court I might need Amanda or one of her parents to speak for me when we get a lawyer since I'm still having trouble writing on paper.

Thanks for your concern and feelings I hope I get better soon.