You don't have to apologise, honey. Just come on in and relax a while with us. You're among friends at Susan's. *hugs*
I think a lot of people here can relate to how you're feeling. This is, by far, the best place to go online, with awesome folks from all walks of life.
A lot of the boards here are blogs, people's own journeys along the path of gender realisation and the way they see life. Most of the community conversation takes place in the top half of the forums. So if you feel more comfortable, just stick to those for now.
There are boards for most things, here, Michael, including one for the guys who visit the forums (who are a great bunch of fellows) to post their experiences, concerns and feelings in.
Here's the board:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/board,27.0.htmlMaybe you could have a look through there and see what some of the other guys here think about, feel and their take on life. See if you identify with, or relate to anything.
Of course you're also very welcome to have a look through any of the other boards here and share anything you feel and think with us.
Confusion is a perfectly understandable state of mind, sweetie. We all feel like that at times. And that is one of the reasons we're here, to talk things through, give each other support, and hopefully make life just that little bit less confusing.
You've already taken one positive step, Michael, probably the biggest one you can take, to come here, and to admit to yourself that something isn't right. There's a lot of information here that you can read up on, and most all the resources you could need are available and at your disposal.
Take it at your own pace, be as involved as you like, but remember, honey, we're here to support you and to try and make this whole thing a little less scary and overwhelming.
You're very welcome here, honey, and I look forward to hearing what you have to say. *big hug*
