Yes, yesterday was my first appointment. However, it didn't go as I expected. The Doc wants to run more test and have me take a supplement for 4 weeks to stabilize my estradiol. Then do a saliva test and go from there. So I didn't get the script I was expecting.
I was so dissapointed with this process after waiting a lifetime that I had an axiety attack in my car and could not stop sobbing and crying for 3 hours. The EMT's were called and I was taken to the emergency room for observation.
My wife had to drive over an hour to come get me as she had no idea where I was when she got the emergency call. I've never had that type of experience before and the only reason I didn't end up in the psych ward was because Tracy, a very the sweet EMT that I confided in what was going on, said that wasn't the right place for me and coached me on what not to say. Close one.
So today I've called to make an appointment with my GT and Shrink and go from here. I'm ok but still on the edge.
The good news is that my wife is now fully up to speed with where I am and didn't throw me out. She isn't happy and we haven't negotiated terms but at least it is all out in the open and we are working through the options for the family.
I hope this isn't too much to share.