Forgive me if this is a variation on the theme of my other posts, but I am new here and just need to get things out. I am just gushing with waves of girlishness since I first confessed my desires to my therapist and then my sister and brother-in-law that I feel I need to keep shouting it to the world in as many ways as possible. Although my sister and her husband only know about my crossdressing, it was still a frightening thing to tell them even that.
The path I have trodden on the way to womanhood has been a rocky one. I pursued it for thirty years while simultaneously denying it. I have been pretty, ugly and in between. Having been small for my age, I was teased and taunted in childhood for looking like a girl. I have been beat up for it. Over the years, I learned how to look convincingly like a woman. I have dressed conservatively and frilly and definitely prefer frilly. I learned that I desperately prefer me as a girl than as a boy, but until recently, had never confessed this to anyone.
Now I find this forum. Everyone is so kind and sweet to me. Its like coming home. I came here, confessed my deepest secrets and was welcomed and shown love so that my soul rejoiced. I feel that here I can overcome my fears and problems. My womanhood will be tenderly nurtured here until it blossoms into a beautiful flower for the world to see. I am Sarah. I have always been Sarah.
I chose the name Sarah because it means princess or a lady of high refinement. And the sound of it is like the soft sigh of a girl satisfied. It is the whisper of my true self.
