Yes, this was also written before I found myself.
I was pretty drunk the night I wrote this! lol
I lie down and close my eyes and begin to think of you. Woman, I'm in
love with you! I know you inside and out! I know you love that raver
kind of music. I love the smell of that Perry Ellis perfume you choose
to wear, it's my favorite to! I picture you as a classy lady with a
warm heart. You sure got style; I know the kinds of clothes you shop
for. I bet you go to those thrift stores to find old faded jeans! I
also know you're a t-shirt fan. I imagine you walking through the mall
like a jet city woman buying your makeup from those upscale stores, I
imagine you with those shopping bags full of the latest music gear and
I see you in my mind talking on that fancy cell phone as you exit the
mall. I saw you, yet I didn't, at the carnival a few weeks ago with
your lover walking that walk, and showing your feminine power. God you
got charisma! I would love to just once run my fingers through your
hair and tell you how much I care! Than slowly work my hand down your
face caressing your cheek drawing your face closer to mine to give you
a kiss. I know that you cry when hear that song! You know what one I'm
talkin about! Yeah, Betty Davis eyes! I heard that you never leave a
lover unsatisfied and you're great in bed! It amazes me how you can
make an entrance everywhere you go and turn heads! I lie hear with the
smell of your perfume lingering in the room! I drink myself into
oblivion fantasizing and thinking about you girl. My heart longs to
feel you! Are for real? Do exist somewhere out there? I see you every
night in my dreams! I gotta have you woman! Like a child, I sit in the
corner of the room with my legs crossed whimpering to feel you! You
come into my life uninvited, but yet you dazzle me with your wit and
your charm! You go into the night clubs and the guys are really
attracted to you! Why do you haunt me like this? I'm dancing with a god
damned ghost! I'm alone dancing with myself! Because you don't exist!
But all hell is breaking loose! I manifested you! There for, you must
exist somewhere!!!!!! What are you? A f#ckin doppelganger?! My evil
twin? You act the same way I do! You love the same way I do! You have
the same taste in music as I do! You sexy thing, you go to the same
clubs I go to! You're a sick motherf#cker like me! So why can't we get
together?! Love, life and laughter, girl, you got it all over me! I
open my eyes full of tears and rise to go splash some water on my face
in the bathroom. I run the cold water and dip my shaky hands in with a
cupping motion and bring em up fast to splash! I raise my head to look
in the mirror and am horrified!!!!!!!!! I can see her!!!! I look deep
into my own eyes, and I see this woman's face looking back at
me!!!!!!!! I can't have her because she is me! (1-13-2008)
