Oh What A Day!

[CC]

Well, today after meeting with my GT I went out shopping at Super Walmart for over an hour! What a marvelous and confidence building experience. You see, I'm 6'1" and 195lbs. So I never believed I'd pass at all.

But I dressed conservatively in a pair of black Gloria Vanderbuilt jeans, Black & White V-Neck long sleeve top and really cute Easy Spirit black walking shoes.

As I walked into the store no one hardly gave me a look. So I smiled, nodded politely when making eye contact and briefly spoke with a couple women during my shopping. Yes, I was undoubtably clocked a few times by mostly women. Or maybe they were just staring a little longer to check me out. But no one pointed me out, followed me around or made a scene. I just enoyed my shopping and went about my business.

When I checked out the cashier, a pretty young black women, was really nice. She MAM'd me as a greeting and then got a really nice and cute smile when we made eye contact as I was paying for my items. So I smiled back and said thank you when she gave me my change. Then I picked up my bag and started to walk away when she said "Opps, you don't want to forget these really cute sunglasses honey. Have a wonderful evening." My heart was singing as I walked out of the store and no one even gave me a second look.

Now I haven't started HRT yet, had any hair removed permanately or surgeries. So I was stunned.

Finally, freedom to be me in this world. It doesn't get any better than that.

So today I'm back in the other mode but with a song in my heart and a smile on my face. I'm viewing this mode in a positive way by viewing it as a necessary means to support all the things that I want to do. Because building the right me is going to be very expensive!

Luv To All,

CC

[almost,angie]

I`m gald you had a great day. It`s posts like yours that help me get through life and gives me hope...

[shaniam]

Good for you! Bravo!!!

My first day out, I wrote in a blog that walking around in public as Shannon felt like being let out of prison. Well it's four years later now, and you know what? It still does.

-Shan

[CC]

I`m gald you had a great day. It`s posts like yours that help me get through life and gives me hope...

Thank you for sharing that with me Angie as I have been where you are and probably will be again and it is the girls here that help me get through those times.

So it makes my heart full that I was able to GIVE BACK to another girl.

Remember, hopes become dreams and dreams become reality.

[Alyx.]

*Blink* Wow, you must really look feminine...

Mind if I see a picture? It would be wonderful if I could do the same. *sigh*

[CC]

*Blink* Wow, you must really look feminine...

Mind if I see a picture? It would be wonderful if I could do the same. *sigh*

Honey, if that is really you in that picture wow, you would have less of a problem than me in passing. You just need to get your confidence and attitude up and you will do great.

Do you have a girl friend that goes out that can mentor you? That's what helped me take the plunge.

Kisses

[Ellieka]

That is great CC! Its so emboldening isn't it? Congratulations and keep it up

[MarySue]

Yes, congratulations! That must have made your day, if not your week.

I've read that 90% of passing is attitude. It sounds like you definitely had the right attitude! And you also dressed appropriately for the location.

Yes, 6-1 is taller than most women, but ... ah, I don't mean to sound catty, but have you looked at the average Walmart shopper? Compared to most of them, you're skinny!

[Alyx.]

*Blink* Wow, you must really look feminine...

Mind if I see a picture? It would be wonderful if I could do the same. *sigh*

Honey, if that is really you in that picture wow, you would have less of a problem than me in passing. You just need to get your confidence and attitude up and you will do great.

Do you have a girl friend that goes out that can mentor you? That's what helped me take the plunge.

Kisses

No.

[TheBattler]

Yay CC, I am so glad you had a good day.



Alice

[Chrissty]

Way to go CC...

ENJOY !    


I remember my first time out shopping...That was way back in 1980....

It was really weird as I had just got myself into a mode where I so frustrated I really just didn't care if people clocked me....but I can remember what happened like it was yesterday....

Firstly I should explain, that I didn't have access to much female clothing as I didn't have a sister and my mums didn't fit; minimal make-up I scratched together; and although I had longer hair in those days, it wasn't really girly.

So the net result must have been a bit of a sight...trainers, tight cord jeans, a girly T shirt (the only thing I had that I could wear) covering a bra stuffed with tights, and a nervous painted smile....

..So what happened?.....Well, the first place I went was a busy back street shop.... I stepped out of the car with my heart pounding and nervously made my way in.....but, I didn't seem to attract too much attention (a couple of glances) while I was browsing the rails,...... and even looking as bad as I did, I got my first ever "mam" from the boy at the check out....Wow! 

Spirits lifted, I decided to head for the main shopping area... I had stopped and was looking in a drug store window when IT happened.... Two 18 year old girls were walking by behind me when one said to the other.... "Hey isn't that a guy"   

..... My heart sank, like someone stepping on an empty coke can to flatten it... I didn't dare move, but my ears pricked up, my brain searching for a way out..

... Then the other girl said "Shhhh.... she's probably just a lesbian" ......and they strutted on past.... 

..But then that was the 80's....

..Now like you say, even without the benefits of youth or HRT with a little attention to a few details, we can usually shop with little more than an occasional glance (which most gg's get anyway), or a maybe a knowing looks at really close range....

Still "closeted", so to speak, I would go totally nuts if I couldn't get a bit of retail therapy every so often... 



Chrissty