I asked for help today... i didn't really tell her i'm TG or anything straight up like that.. Just asked for a therapist and told her ive always felt male inside, cause she didn't really wanna push the subject.
But she was really accepting of me, that i'll still be her child. but she told me that my decision would alienate me further from people than i already am. That i'd have more trouble making friends, getting a job etc... Then she said that maybe i don't wanna be either, that i don't want an adult body, like i wanna be some kind of androgynous child.. I dunno maybe she's in a little bit of denial, but i dunno what would make her think i'd wanna be like that (hmm maybe i have an idea).
I wanna grow up... i wanna grow up and be a man.. But i'm afraid. i know now that i'm a guy, not a girl, and not an it-child.. lol