Wow, it does feel odd to be on this board agian. I used to be a member here, quite a while ago. I was more of a reader than a poster, and I don't actually remember what my name was.
Anyway, back then, I identified as FTM. I wanted to transition to being male. But then, that desire faded.
I am now 18 years old and a University student in the UK.
I've at Uni over 10 weeks now. The plan was to be more feminine here. I thought a new start with people who did not have preconception of me, unlike my friends at home, was all I needed to be female.
I was wrong.
I'm now fairly sure I don't actually want to transition to becoming male, but there's really no getting away from the fact that I'm not female either.
I wear skirts, and make-up, on occassion, for going out. But it is a costume. A total fascade. It feels quite good, in a way, but it is still "dressing up". I feel like a child dressing up as something. Putting on the costume doesn't make it real.
So I am androgynous. Certainly in my mind, but not in appearance.
I may also be asexual, haven't figured that one out yet.
So yeah, that's me.
