I am who I am, and I don't try to be someone else. That would be shallow and inconsistent with my belief about who and what I am.
My husband noticed me, and fell in love with me, because I wasn't put on, or fake. He loved how I was free from social constraints and became me.
There are so many wonderful and absolutely gorgeous women around the world, I don't know how anyone could pick just one as their muse. For me, the girl/woman I fell in love with, and want to be like, was the one I saw in my dreams for over 30 years. I still am chasing her even yet, today.