I used to love Christmas, but as I got older I started feeling guilty about people buying me things. I never knew what to get them, and wouldn't have been able to afford gifts even if I did.
Not to mention that I don't get along with my father and younger sister at all (they're so full of vicious hate that they don't get along with
anyone, including my mother, my brother, and each other). They're so unpleasant to be around that I just spent Christmas Eve at the office, off the clock, teaching myself how to build SharePoint sites. I didn't come home until past midnight.
It's not all bad, though - I've been making friends with this really wonderful girl at the office, and tonight she gave me a holiday card with the sweetest, most sincere, most thoughtful message I've ever read. I stated to cry right there in the middle of the office. She's just so awesome - she's smart, stylish, unconventional, tech savvy, friendly, loving, cheerful, silly, cute, and a tree-hugging hippy pagan to boot. I know it sounds like I'm smitten with her, but it doesn't feel very sexual to me... more like hero-worship.

I just wish I'd had something to give her in return. I wish I'd hugged her.