Hi! I was on this site from about 2 1/2 years ago til about a year ago, under the name, Tara. It seems like another lifetime. I'm back! Very different, though. I feel the need to reconnect. It's important, again.
Synopsis: 48yo, lifelong gender dysphoria, divorced, 3 sons, was in military, MD, psychiatrist. Started to address my gender in therapy a few years ago, hard, nasty, really bad depression.. I had to transition. My family was supportive but heartbroken, one son won't speak to me, the others do but are distant. I met a good woman, who loves me, we married in September. I went fulltime then, with legal name change and gender change on my DL. Work was amazingly supportive! I had to design it myself there, but it went smoothly. I was accepted by the vast majority of my coworkers and patients.. some left, but I'm surprised how few did. I had FFS with Dr Z in July.. which totally kicked my butt.. but the results are good. For the first time in my life, I feel beautiful. Ever. Not always, but I can feel it. I interviewed for a job out east, in boy mode last summer, but telling them I was going to transition. I wow'em! They offered me the job then, but then withdrew it, because I was trans. I did some talking to the state advocacy organization, and they just offered my the medical directorship of their soon to be new GLBT addiction and mental health unit.. we're talking. Will see.
I'm scheduled for GRS in 11mo.. (can I wait that long??). It feels like a new life to me now. Not all roses, but much much better.. much more honest and true. I'm a better person now, more open, more patient and compassionate.. good stuff.
I really look forward to reacquainting with you all.
Namaste, Lunae
