Both today and yesterday were the first several moments where people consistently used male pronouns, and not just my girlfriend either. I've been finding that when people use male pronouns, it validates me. I'm not sure how to explain it. But once someone says he, it's like my mind shifts over into totally guy mode, not just shifty-in-the-middle mode, and I have a lot more confidence and it's just wonderful. I just feel more -real- if that makes sense.
I've also noticed that today and yesterday, overlooking the fact that I'm still miserable from being sick, I'm actually in a good mood. I've actually had a good day. I haven't had that angry dark grey cloud over my head and I don't have to worry about the fact that I never know why I have that cloud all the time. I'm just...good. And slightly terrified that it will go away in a few days and I'll be depressed again, but never mind that.
I was wondering if the two could be related? It never really dawned on me to connect the two, because I've been depressed for a few years now and I wasn't sure of being TG until nine or so months ago. But now it just seems like they have to be connected somehow.
Any thoughts? 🙂
