New Year's Resolution

[Patricia]

I have been cross dressing as long as I can remember.  When I started out, I used to steal my sister's underwear and wear it when no one was around (I am fairly certain that she knew I was the one stealing it, but she never confronted me with it).  I did have one of her old dresses that I used to like to wear too.  Now, many many years later, I live alone, and after purging several times, I have built up a small wardrobe of women's clothing, but I still have not dressed to what I consider "completely."  I've come pretty close by wearing bras, panties, skirts, blouses, etc., but I have never worn a wig, breast forms, have never had my make-up done, and have never worn women's shoes.  This year I am going to do it!  I have found a local place that does makeovers for cross dressers (over a year ago), and this year I am going to go!  I am also going to dress up for Halloween like I have wanted to for the last 20 years (whether or not I go out dressed is different story, but maybe).  I think it is time I embrace my cross dressing and stop hiding my clothing in the deepest darkest place I can find (where it gets all wrinkled).  I have already cleared out a section of my closet and hung up much of what I have (it is still kind of hidden, only someone who was really snooping would find it).

I still don't think I'm ready to come out (I did mention to my girlfriend that I have a fetish for women's lingerie, and she seems to think that's weird, but it is one step in the right direction).  Now I just want to say one more thing:

I love to dress in women's clothing, and this year I am going to embrace it! 

[barbie]

Good luck, Patricia, but I think a slow move is always good.

I do not have any resolution for the new year, as I already did what I wanted. Walking street while fully dressed is thrilling and enjoyable. My problem was that my fashion usually have been bolder than most of women at the street. Next year, I will try tone down my fashion to be fit well with other common ladies in the street.

Another problem is that my close people all think that I did enough, and enough is enough, hoping that I will return to male mode. They ask like "Now you did all you wanted. That was still not enough? You have kids to support and you will have promising career only if you return to a normal dad. Your salary would be increased at least by twice next year".

I just listen to them. Should I have my hair cut next year?

Barbie~~

[Sally Stone]

I love your resolution Patricia.  Expanding your crossdressing experience is joyful.  I wish you all the best.  I have my own New Year's Resolution.  I plan to lose 30 pounds so I can get back into a size 12 skirt.  I have so many wonderful clothes in my wardrobe that I just don't fit into any longer.  I am motivating myself to lose the weight and get back into shape.

All the best,

Sally

[Kaeren]

I want to loose weight also and get back into shape also. My sister lost 20 kg, it made her another person.

Barbie has such a nice "line" because of running I think. So the best way to loose weight is probably just moving, running. 

My wife bought me a wig and a dress as a new year's present.  She told me I shouldn't go too far in the open because it would mean all kinds of trouble.

Where I work salary does not increase by 2 over night at all.  But mine did increase by more or less 50 %  after I started cross dressing ( at home ).  I think Babrie looks so feminine that I don't really believe it would have a negative effect.  If I would be Barbie I would even go further.

[barbie]

If I would be Barbie I would even go further.

Hi, Kaeren,

Happy new year.

A few people suggested to me like you. Surprsingly an old senior colleague at my work place once encouraged me to wear fully. I thought he was conservative, as he sometimes made negative comments on my feminine appearance, espeically long hairs. He was retired on the first day of this year due to his age.

In overall, my country is still conservative, espeically among scholars and goverment officials. Some of college professors, who I have thought understand and accept me so nicely, still sometimes urge me to have my hairs cut short. They say my long hair would be O.K. if I were an artist or a freelance, but it can cause some problem because I am a goverment official and a scholar. They all say that they advise me because they like and worry me.

For this reason, I will be a little bit shrunk this year. I choose rather modest women's dress.

It was a little bit chilly today, but I enjoyed biking. I am always happy while riding on bike (a lot of endorphin).

Barbie~~

[shychristine]

Hi Patricia, I made a New Years Resolution too. I came out to my mother (she lives with me) and told her I was Transgender. I told her on New Years day because I told her I want to start the new year off being honest with her and I couldnt hide who I am any more since I was this way since I was about 7.
She told me that some of her family and friends had seen my father dressed as a woman in the mall when I was a kid. She had seen him out dressed herself. Her family and friends kidded her about it alot. I told her it must have been painful. My father and mother never talked to each other about it and my mother kept it from me and my siblings. She told me not to be embrassed about dressing in front of her but...She did ask me not to go out dressed or wear make up when I am dressed around her. Being in a small state where you rund into some one you know where ever you go I agreed not to go out dressed because I couldnt pass as far as not wearing make up I agreed because she said my father looked like a guy in a dress and by me doing these two things would bring back painful memories of my father.
But she has been wonderful since I came out she has become my best friend and for years I was scared to tell her because I felt she would not accept it, I am so sorry I douted her all these years so now I can be honest with her.

[gennee]

Great resolution, Patricia. Do it! It's gets better and easier everytime you go out in public.


Gennee

[Patricia]

Thank you all for your support.

I really would like to go out in public some time soon; however, I have to take small steps.  My plan is to first go and get that makeover I described above, then some night I would like to get dressed and walk the neighborhood when I don't have too much of a chance of being spotted (the only people I'm worried about is my neighbors).  This place that I was planning on going to for the makeover also has social events where everyone has to be dressed as a lady, but I don't think that is something for me. 

Actually, I almost would like to come out to my sister, only because I'm pretty sure she already knows that I used to steal her underwear, and she did help me with my make-up one year for holloween when I was a teenager (I was wearing jeans under my, her, dress and was not wearing a bra).  I also overheard her daughter, some years ago, when we both lived at my mother's house, (snikering) tell a friend of the family that I like to play with women's clothing.  My sister then took her daughter in the other room to have a "talk" with her.  That tells me that they must have found something, or they already know.  The problem is that I don't know how to approach the subject with her, and I am afraid of the rest of the family finding out, but I would like to be able to talk to someone openly about it.

By the way Barbie, I would not cut my hair if I were you.  I used to have long hair many years ago, and I cut it.  I then tried to grow it out again, but then you get to that "in between" stage where it just does not look good, and you can't tie it back if you want to.  As a result I cut it again.  Now that I work in an office, it is just not appropriate for me to grow my hair long.  It would have been a different story if my hair was already long.  Now I almost regret cutting my hair.  I'm just saying consider that before you go and get your hair cut.   

Patricia       

[barbie]

Patrica,

Good luck in your journey.

I think progressive action would be better than detailed talk. Although I did not want to declare it suddenly, sometimes I had to talk with my close people regarding my dressing and other gender issues. Outcomes were not so much dramatic as I hoped. A few people accepted my desire and dressing very well, but most opposed my crossdressing although they said they could understand my motivation. One of my close friends, who accepts my crossdressing so well, recommended not to pursuade everybody.

It will not be easy at all.

Barbie~~