Hi Nonie:
I would strongly encourage you to go to a support group meeting. This past Saturday I went to group I found online and it was great. I was able to meet in a social setting with other trans folks and friends. The group was a nice mix of MtF and FtM, and preop and post op, and everything in between.
Like you said, talking with someone face to face, making a human connection is so satisfying. There were no "freaks" there, just normal everyday people, living basically normal everyday lives, who happen to be living a trans life.
I was treated and accepted for the woman I am. I tried on lots of outfits to pick just the right one. I had a taste of the life I am seeking and it was more than I could hoped for.
If you go to the support group you will meet like minded people and make some good friends. And it's a good way to out go out dressed and be safe.
Maya