Rawr! Rawr! Rawr!

[BunnyBee]

Nothing special to see here as I just follow the archetype of the transperson who tries to "overcome" their gender issues-- which means I let my 20's get away from me, basically.  Thinking I had totally successfully put this gender stuff behind me (lol) I got married ...and quickly learned otherwise.  It turned out filling the role of "man of the house" was not compatible with my internal identity -like, at all.  Without going into great detail, my wife eventually decided she was not a lesbian- fittingly, around the time I decided the same thing .  That was a trip...

Anyway, lesbian or not, I was terribly sad to see my wife go- but as emotions fade I have begun to realize she did us both a favor.  Now I am free to figure out how to live an authentic life and put in the rearview the cardboard, man --*ahem* woman, rather -- behind the curtain existence which has been my life so far.  I am excited, I feel hope for the first time in my life, and I'm utterly terrified.

That should bring you all up to speed.

(Edited:I can display my name as "Jen" now so I removed a sentence which may have been confusing )

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Jen aka Della,   

Welcome to our little family. Over 1490 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion. Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers.  Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now.  And it is always nice to have another sister.   

Janet

[mina.magpie]

I'm glad you're out of the wilderness now Delia. If it's only your 20's you're still luckier than most, and you've got a wild ride followed by a good life ahead of you. So yeah, welcome to Susan's, and may we be at least moderately helpful on your journey.

Mina.

[Ms.Behavin]

Ha,  terror, sounds about right at the beginning.  But it does get easier and then it gets better and better as the outside matches the inside more and more.  Welcome to susans.

Beni

[lizbeth]

hi jen, welcome to susan's!

[Jay]

Welcome to Susans Jen/Delia

Loving the Title! RAWR!

[paulault55]

Hi Jen,

Welcome to Susans Place.

[BunnyBee]

Hi back to you all .  I look forward to getting to know everybody better .

[V M]

Hi Jen, and welcome

I've had some similar experiences. Some of my girlfreinds have been lesbian. It was role reversal at it's finest. But alas I would get dumped for another girl. Such is life 

[BunnyBee]

Hehe, how did that go?  "Honey, I'm sorry but I think I'm a lesbian.." 
"Oh well conveniently enough for us, it turns out I'm a girl!"

Anyway, I think if you told a younger version of me I'd get divorced later in life because my wife turned out to not be into chicks I'd have said, "mm... sounds about right."  The trippy part for me was realizing I wasn't into them either .

The question boggling my mind is did my orientation change, or has it always been this way and I somehow didn't realize it?  I consider myself pretty darned introspective, so is it weird I'm leaning toward the latter?  This is prolly another topic for another day, but I think most girls I dated suspected something to be up, I know my ex did pretty soon after we got married.  Somehow I didn't share her suspicions, but in retrospect it seems obvious what was going on.  ...sometimes I fascinate me .

~Never underestimate the human capacity for denial..

[Cindy]

Hi Jen
I think are a few who been there. Everyone's story  is the same but different.
Welome and have a chat
Cindy James

[mina.magpie]

The question boggling my mind is did my orientation change, or has it always been this way and I somehow didn't realize it?

My sexuality also went into flux after I started accepting me, and more, on HRT. It seems to be settling on bi now. I was always attracted to women, but me with a guy as a guy was ... just wrong. Me as a girl with a guy would be okay ... if guys weren't such buttheads.

Mina.

[V M]

The question boggling my mind is did my orientation change, or has it always been this way and I somehow didn't realize it?

My sexuality also went into flux after I started accepting me, and more, on HRT. It seems to be settling on bi now. I was always attracted to women, but me with a guy as a guy was ... just wrong. Me as a girl with a guy would be okay ... if guys weren't such buttheads.

Mina.

I've dated a few guys. But never had sex with any of them. They would always do something stupid and kill the relationship. 
I do miss this one guy who was talking about leaving his current girlfriend for me. But when I saw her with a black eye, that killed it for me. Not gonna hook up with a hitter. Anyway he got deported back to France. 

[katherine]

Hi Jen and welcome to Susan's!  I think you'll like it here.  Lot's of good people, advice, and information...

[gennee]

Welcome to the site, Jen.

Gennee

[tinkerbell]

Hello Delia and welcome to Susan's! 

Thanks so much for introducing yourself.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site, review the site rules before posting, and take advantage of our many resources such as the wiki, chat, and the links listed at the main page.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay! 

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