Yea and thanks for your advise! Your right Delgado, this may be a really low brow example but Lar Ulrich of MetallicA says its just better to say f*** it and keep going forward. I am human and I am still like whoa. I saw this youtube v blog by someone who is on the path to transitioning, let me tell you that person said alot of what I have thought and am feeling right now!