A non-transitioning TS? What craziness is this?!?

[Just Kate]

Funny about the lesbian comment.  My desired appearance in the end is to look like a girl who is trying to look like a guy.   I could do that shortly after transition before I got on T.

Aww well.

[Chrissty]

Funny about the lesbian comment.  My desired appearance in the end is to look like a girl who is trying to look like a guy.   I could do that shortly after transition before I got on T.

Aww well.

....and I used to think my life was getting complicated ?

[TheBattler]

Hi interalia,

Non-transitioning TS would make your gender identity female. I am very mixed up at the moment but I tried transitioning with a male/mixed gender identity and it did not work (HRT gave me to may mood swings). Why I never think I will ever get to the "female gender identiy" maybe you have somethinging here as living with GID is (and contonues to be) hell on earth for moe.

Alice

[postoplesbian]

Funny about the lesbian comment.  My desired appearance in the end is to look like a girl who is trying to look like a guy.   I could do that shortly after transition before I got on T.

Aww well.

Lots of people think i am a FTM which is fine by me

[Lacey Lynne]

I like your attitude.  It will help you deal with the realities of being trans.

I once was dead certain I'd never transition.  No way, no how.  It just wasn't going to happen.  But I felt it necessary to be honest about who I was.  Then the mass exodus occurred.  Suddenly the need to remain male for everyone faded.

Now that I'm full time I'm so glad I did it.  The price was high but not as high as it would have been because I was headed for self destruction.

Julie

To JulieMarie:

Yes!  Right now, I'm where you were when you started out.  I said, "No way ... no how."   Well, ... !

I'm to the point now that you came to; that is, "For whom?"   My logic says, "No."  My emotions say, "Yes!"   The only one who would care anymore would be my S.O., and if she leaves, well, it just goes with the territory, right?  Like you did, I've reached the point where the internal suffering (for all of these many years) is just too much.  I'm going for it, but Lord knows how.  Anyway, that's another thread.

Thanks, JulieMarie.  You've inspired me tremendously.   I'm about your age, by the way, so I face "The Older T-gal Syndrome" in addition to everything else.  Doesn't matter, does it?  No, it doesn't!  Like you, I'm going for it!  If there is a God and He/She/It rejects and damns me for this, then I can't make it in His/Her/Its universe anyway, and how cruel, cruel, cruel a God they are.

Peace to you all.

[Tina2]

Hi interalia, I am 40 and have decided not to transition, so far I can deal with my problems and if it gets worst later then I am sure I can find ways to deal with it, so far I always have.  You seem like a person with a strong attitude and I am sure you will find ways to live a normal life.
I have a wonderful wife of 22 years ( and she knows of my problem and helps in any way she can) and  a daughter and grand daughter, I am self employed and very well know at what I do, I do many other things as a hobby and do them very well to, I even started playing the piano, totaly self taught and I play by ear, I mostly play George Winston and my own creations but I think by going all this stuff and doing it the best I can has helped a lot, I hope that things will work out for you, let me know if I can ever help in any way.
Almost Angie, I live in Hawaii too, nice to see a local, aloha to you all.

Tina

[mtfbuckeye]

Non-transitioning MTF here... I've also chosen not to transition at this time, unfortunately after coming out to my friends, parents, and my wife's parents. It's true what someone said to me after I "came out" as trans.. there's "no backsies" on this. Friends have already told me that they'll always see me as "Johnnie" now, and in some ways I like that... but I can tell that others might be irretrievably weirded out, or think that I'm an uber-flake.

The bottom line is I've decided not to transition because of marriage and family issues. At the end of December I had the triple-whammy of my wife telling me that I had to choose between her (and our son) or transition, and she also found out sordid details of my past infidelity... plus, I lost my job. So now I'm unemployed and trying to keep my marriage together... my trans issues have landed squarely on the back burner..

I could have chosen to separate, move back to Seattle, and start my transition, but I didn't... I'm with a new therapist, and trying to sort out if I truly am a TS, or if my desire to transition is a symptom of other, deeper self-esteem issues..

So for now, it's back to looking like Jack Black in bearded mode... it's good to be back here on Susans though..