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Went to a "normal" bar for the first time as me

Started by Melissa, September 02, 2006, 04:42:45 AM

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Melissa

Well, I went to a bar for the first time as female that was not a GLBT bar.  Why did I wait so long?  In case I was carded...and I was. ::)  It didn't matter at the GLBT bar as I just went as a transsexual, but this is the first time as a woman.  So, here's what happened:

I had been talking to people on the phone for the last 3 hours and hadn't had dinner and I wanted to go out for the evening.  Originally I was going to go to a GLBT bar, but I was on the phone so long, I didn't have time to go across town.  So I went to touch up my make up and I had left some at work.  I used what I had and ran to the store and got replacements for what I had left behind.  I touched it up in the car and then I got a call from my ex wondering where I was at.  I told her and she said the kids were at her mom's house overnight and wondered if she could join me for dinner and I said sure.  I finished up the makeup and went to the restaurant and met up with her.  We ate and had a good meal.  Then I asked her if she wanted to go to a bar and she said sure.  She wanted to go to a karaoke bar that she frequents.  So we went in her car.

We got there and went in.  I was a little nervous as I had only been in a bar briefly since going fulltime to look for someone.  Anyway, we sat and ordered drinks.  I was asked for ID, so I showed my handy dandy DL with my handy dandy 'F' on it. ;D  Next, I decided to sing a song I thought I knew and could sing fairly well as female.  While waiting, one of the women that was more popular (I think she was Bi) and started talking to us.  She sat down next to my ex closely and was asking what song she chose and then she leaned over and asked me which one I chose and I told her and she was impressed and sat down next to me closely and we talked for a bit.  She was surprised I was asa old as I was when she asked my age, but I just flashed my handy dandy DL to prove it.  After a bit, she went back to her other friends. 

Later she asked both of us to dance with her and her friends so we did.  Eventually my song came up and I sang it.  It had words in it I didn't know it had, so I did poorly (except for sounding female :icon_joy:).  Well, we signed up for another song each and after another drink, more dancing and waiting, mine came up.  Well, I did awesome this time.  In fact, I did better than I ever had practicing it.  So, I can sing as female :icon_joy:.  Well, the evening was pretty successful and I seemed to pass well.  This was my first experience doing this at a non-GLBT bar and it wasn't as scary as I thought.  In fact, I had a blast.

Melissa
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TheBattler

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sky

Well done Melissa & it sounds like you had a great night out!

~ Sky X
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Buffy

Hey Congrats Melissa...

A big step and a significant one.

It is kind of scary just thinking about what peoples reaction might be.... I remember I was totally freaked about going into pubs in the UK with friends early into transition.  Yeah there where some problems, but mostly people coming up and saying "I was really brave" and so on...

Sometimes peoples reactions amaze us...

Buffy
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Julie Marie

Good for you girl!  I wish I could have heard you sing!

Last weekend I did the same with a GG friend of mine.  Except there was no karaoke and I didn't get carded.  That hasn't happend in over a decade.
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When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself.
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BrandiOK

That's cool Melissa.....I wish we could change our gender markers on drivers license here but no can do until after SRS.  I live in constant fear of being carded by somebody who will make a scene.  So far I've been lucky and I just get wierd looks when I get carded.
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Melissa

Thanks for the responses so far.  It is very strengthening to go into a new situation like this and come out of it with everyone seeing you as you see yourself.  I am still adjusting to and learning my new life as a woman and I have found that hanging out with other women (especially straight women) is very helpful.  I spent so long trying to see what guys did, that I now am looking to see what women do.  There are many things that come naturally, but sometimes they are hard to separate from old habits and I want to act appropriately. 

Here's a good analogy.  It's kind of like going into a dark room and you think you know where the walls (boundaries) are.  After spending enought time, you eventually learn where those walls are and get out of the room.  Then you are put in another dark room and the walls are in a completely different arrangement of walls.  Some are in the same place and others are not.  You happen to know where many of these walls are just by pure instincts, but not all of them.  By watching the other people in the room, you can learn where those new walls are faster without bumping into them.

Also I'm learning what my abilities are in terms of blending in with the world by trying out new things like singing as a female.  Anyway, it was a great experience and it reaffirms that I can successfully live as a woman and enjoy it.

Melissa
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Mario

Melissa,
     That is very good news indeed. First of all you LOOK female and of course you are, but as long as you are perceived by others you can let loose and do as you please.  ;)

                                               Marco
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Julie_in_MT

Melissa,

That's great!!!! :)  It has to be a great feeling to just be yourself in a normal setting catering to the general public. Congrats on singing!!!! And of course being yourself!! ;D

Julie
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Kia Lafemme

Nice done Melissa  8)

Me my self go to ordinary bars all the time now,
i have had a few bad experienses,
but have had mutch more good ones,
and the free drinks and beers come more often now  ;D
but i also have had a bad experiense in the only GLBT place in my town,
i got kicket out because i did use the ladies toilet.

So Melissa if you get some bad treatment some places,
don't let that stop you from going where you wanna go.

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