Well I think the other thing that could be examined is why exactly it matters so much what others are doing? And how it comes to be that you are working overtime to judge that, rather than just kicking back and digging the party. It's only one party, only one night, its not like your getting married to them, or because you shared a beer and a bong your all going to be tied together forever.
I mean what is it exactly that they 'ought' be doing with their lives? Is that in any way holding you back? I think there are a lot of ways, a lot of paths through life, and people find the way that works best for them you hope, and one person's 'wasting your life away' is a dream existence to others.
And some of the other stuff, like I acted civil, I hate having to be fake and acting like everything is ok hey, that's just life, and its good to practice for the thousands of other times in your life when your going to have to do just this again, and again.
Look, if your going to be successful in some way, and that's what I think you are - and they are not - doing, then I'm here to tell you (and I'm sure some of the other older girls and boys here will help me out) that you are going to have to work with people, and be social with them not just when your not too fond of them, but when you outright loathe them and view them with total disgust. But your going to have to be nice, or you get send home or fired. I work with - or am forced in my job to interact with - people who are so vile and loathsome that song's like Queen's Death on Two Legs, and Heart's Barracuda get written about them. And they like that. And the songs don't even get close to how creepy they are. Now I could tell them that - at length even - and get all hissy and bitchy (and I can, I can) but I bundle all that up, look down at the floor and look them in the eyes and say "Nice shoes."
Hey, I want to do my work, do the show, and this chucklehead is only to to take a minute or so to explain away, so I do it, with a smile on my face and without saying "did your parents have any kids that lived?" though the thought does pass through my mind.
And in time you like some people more and other people less, and life can be funny in who those people are. I'm real sure about that.
I also will be happy to tell you that there are a lot of vile, abusive and mean spirited humans around, and if you hang out around them enough you're life will suck just as much as theirs does. And if that's the buzzer that's going off in your brain, then get out of there and find other people.
