When I was a child, I would just randomly cry.
I think I don't know how to deal with my feelings and the internet tells me that it's because they are "too intense".
Once when I cried my mother took me in front of a mirror and told me how ugly I looked.
So I learned to not cry.
It's been hard to unlearn that one!
Last year I decided I was tired of being depressed and that I would try to do something about it, and I have been doing it.
Emotions are a very strange thing and I don't really understand them. I feel as if I am just unaware of how does one deal with emotions ... there's just no information about it in my head.
In my teenager years, I became a shut-in (I still am.) so I didn't really noticed other people until like my 20s or something. So my "people dealing" module is very empty.
Since I learned I was tired of being sad, I've been purposely smiling to people on the street, it makes me feel good.
It's not a fake smile, either. It's like,
cross your path with a random stranger
look at the person in the eyes
wait until they look at you
SMILE

go your own way.
feels good man.