How did you know you were transgendered?

[BunnyBee]

I always knew I should have been a girl.  I would dream of growing up to be a woman or turning into a girl as far back as age 4, prolly earlier but I don't have any specific memories of such thoughts before then.  Obviously I didn't know there was a term for these feelings back then.  In fact, I actually thought all little boys secretly felt this way.

None of the choices fit perfectly so I went with the closest one, "I was afraid of growing up and becoming an adult version of my birth sex" since the horrible depression I feel whenever I convince myself this will have to be my fate is what finally made me start the process of fixing things.

[Miniar]

The quiz needs an "other" option.
I think that what really nailed i for me is that I'd wake up in the morning and slowly come to the realization that my body wasn't how I expected it to be. I reached down and didn't find what I knew should be there, and as a result got confused for a while.
This was, and still is, a "normal" morning for me.

[SisterGirlfriend]

Wow, you know, the "I was afraid of growing up and becoming an adult version of my birth sex" is something that leapt out at me because it was something I think I've felt for a while but didn't know how to articulate. I think I was almost "okay" with being a young boy because it was easy to feel pretty and feminine, but the idea of growing up into a MAN freaked me out big time and really pushed me to get help.

[Inphyy]

For me I never fitted into my "birth gender" and my mind hid my transgender issues from me, like locking it away from me and then when I became about 13 everything started to open up in my mind and everything became unlocked and clear to me.

[LordKAT]

Headstart, couldn't figure out who this person was they kept refering to but it wasn't me. They acted like it was. I gave up ans answered anyway but wondered why they kept taking my tonka;s and handing me a doll. kept wondering what I was spose to do with the doll and embarrassed that they gave me one at all. figured i was an alien that got left behind.

[Thorndrop]

For me, I always preferred to hang out with boys as a child and do 'boy things' like climb trees and play with toy cars.  I remember quite strongly that when I was a child, my nan had breast cancer and had to have a masectomy, and I just thought 'I want that operation myself when I'm older'.  PUberty was a nightmare - I burst into tears for hours when I got my period, and being told I was 'turning into a woman' just depressed me.  I didn't want to be one of the women I saw around me.

[Deanna_Renee]

Much like Julie,

I had always had the desire to become a girl, that I was somehow already a girl, but couldn't understand how I could be, but be a boy.

I didn't vote for the 'girl being better than boy' option, because I have always had a problem with better than or worse than. I have always envied girls for being girls. I have always wanted to experience life from their perspective and have always known that while they are not better or worse and boys had certain advantages that girls didn't, I still only wanted to be a girl (given the option).

How did I know I was transgendered? I finally found Susan's and learned a lot about what other people, who called themselves transgendered, had to say and it was very much similar to my story. I discovered what transgendered meant, is, could be and I 'knew' that was me. I had always known at some level that I was, I just didn't know what it was.

Deanna

[Dani]

I had feelings at age 5, which I "knew" were wrong and fought those feelings for years.

Today, I am trying to accept myself for what I am.

Dani

[Dianna]

I knew it deep inside me from a very young age, but never discussed it with my parents or 2 brothers. I believe now in hindsight, my Mum always knew.

Soon after I finished High School, I moved to another State, Sydney, NSW where I was told there were doctors available for counseling and then GRS.

It seems way easy to say that now, but if I'm honest it was all a very hard period in my life.

[Silver]

Well I fit in better with the opposite sex. Girls usually make me nervous.

When I was younger, didn't know and didn't care about gender differences. They never really seemed real. Then puberty hit. It was one of those "it happens, but not to me" until it did. It's a nightmare and it's not me. I feel like I'm being deprived of a part of myself. The internet helped me find out what a transsexual was and it just fit.

I'm sick of sexual segregation in certain areas but hey what can you do? I figured all girls wanted to be men and were ashamed of their femininity but I guess I was wrong.

Not too exciting or dramatic but eh. As soon as I can I'm fixing this mess.

SilverFang

[Teena89]

Yea like wise good poll
i think everyone early memoery of sumthin wrong was probaly age 4 and 5!!

yea teena

[Silver]

Yea like wise good poll
i think everyone early memoery of sumthin wrong was probaly age 4 and 5!!

yea teena

Only because few people remember much of anything before that. And I didn't feel anything was wrong with me until puberty.

SilverFang

[paxcow]

I voted 'None of the above' because I always wanted to be a boy, ever since I can remember. When I discovered the word 'transgender' and that there were other people like me who were unhappy with their birth sex and did something about it, I was like "Wow! So that's what I am!"

[Dianna]

It was definitely in my mind at 4/5 years of age, naturally at that age I had no idea what was ahead of me as I grew older. 

[Walter]

Well..I knew I wanted to be a boy when I was around five years old. That feeling kind of went away til around two years ago when I realized that it's possible to still be a boy but without physically being one. I just realized one day that I was transgendered. And since then I've been having name and gender issues

[Chaunte]

I knew.  I just knew.

But the most amazing thing to me is -- I was so damned good at concealing that knowledge from me.

I was scared of it.  Simultaneously enticed and revulsed.

I wanted to be all-natural.  I wished that I'd only been born that way.  Transition?  You're crazy!

I finally realized I was the one who was crazy -- crazy for not facing myself and getting it th'hell over.

I think the moment of my decision was that I could no longer put it off.

Karen

Karen's statement is close to where I was. 

What I would add in describing me is a sense of inner harmony I discovered when Dr. Jekyll was forced into the same room with Ms. Hyde.  Once the initial shock/panic passed, the resulting inner peace convinced me that I was transgendered.

Of course, it took almost 3 years before I understood that i would have to transition, but that is another story...