I think what she's telling you is that is up to you to decide. This is your fifth or so incarnation here and they arrive about a day or so after you've requested the previous one to be gone.
You've gotten support and a boatload of good advice and suggestions. But you've shrugged all of that off again and again. You continuously appear to be unwilling or unable to do things that will help to relieve that pressure on your life. Instead you come back again and again and write only about how bad everything is and how you are about to be punished.
It's time for you to stop hoping for bad luck, so to speak, and start to employ tactics that may help yourself. No one but you can change your mind-set, your current pattern of embracing disaster.
The problem has never been support. Perhaps everyone doesn't seem to be "on your side" but most posters here have been and are. And more have been and have given up because you seem more intent on being a martyr rather than making your situation at least somewhat better.
Those are all choices you've made, Some MTF.
If you placed half of your energy into doing positive things to help yourself you'd prolly find that you wouldn't be having the time or need to make account after account here and request that they be closed, again and again.
These problems are inevitably of your own making. Your own rash actions have placed you in circumstances you find totally uncomfortable. Your own actions can help you out of those positions as well.
Have you talked with Montreal again to see about payment and a date prior to 1 June? If not why not? The days grow shorter between now and then. Time to take some real power over yourself and your life.
I see you say you're going to SRS. Does this mean you finally took some decent advice and re-acquired a date prior to losing your passport and being taken into custody? If so then
It's about darned time.
Nichole
