Today, my sister took me to go pick up mom's bday gifts (which she loved ^.^) and so I brought up the whole FTM thing. I've been talking about it more since I joined here. Lol. Well, I started with just telling her about the pills Hazard told me about, then moved on to other things I was thinking about, and the packers and all that stuff. She told me that I was freaking her out and she needed to go see her therapist.
At one point, she said she'd rather me be lesbian than a guy. So, for her, I said "Well, then, I'm lesbian!" and she pointed out it was a lie to which I told her she could think of this any way that made her feel better (better enough to support me). In the end, she told me that she will NEVER, even post-op, EVER, not once, call me a boy/he/him/etc. At first, it didn't affect me, but right now, it's kinda got me down. Of course, my response to her was "Well, in the end, I'm still gonna be a queen, so I guess it's fine. I'll still be a fairy."
that probably helped delay the feelings I'm feeling now.
and... I really wanna tell my dad, but he's pretty much my last chance for close-family support. I'm terrified he's going to be against it like the rest that I can't bring myself to tell him flat out, even on the phone. Would it be terribly wrong to tell him through a text or email? He's a long haul truck driver, so in order to tell him face to face I'd have to wait, maybe over 6 months...
what do you all think...? How can I get some sort of emotional support for this? and what's the best way to tell my dad...?
