Hello

[Tranquillity]

hello all,

I am still in the closet about my CD with the exception of one person. My family does not know. I have a place I can dress up. So far it is just stockings, bra and panties. I tuck using Panties or tape (irritating as it is) I took a bit step the past week. I actually went to the store and got my own Bra and panties. I went and got stockings, a scrunci clip for my hair, hair remover, nail polish, nail polish remover, and I think that is it. All in one day, Big step for me.

I found Susan's place while looking up info on clothing size etc. I am hoping to learn and gain some information here.

My interest in this started as a kid, while on vacation I snuck a pair of panties from a friends sister and they fit, she was about my age. I wore them for a few years till they did not fit. I was afraid to go any further. I had a girlfriend give me a pair of her's as a going away present when I got on a plane. It was a gift from heaven. I wore them at night and had them off before I got out of my rack.

But now many many years later here I am moving ahead. I am not sure how far I will go. Or if I will go Public with this. I think it would destroy my marriage which has enough stress on it as is.

Thanks for having me.


TQ

[Cindy]

Hi TQ and welcome.
We are all on a journey to be ourselves. It is not an easy task. The lucky ones who were born as their sex identity may never understand. Although there are some marvelous people who are supporting their friends and family on this site.

TG/TS who have to transition to their brain sex rather than their physical sex are often isolated, confused, alone, depressed: the list goes on. On this site their are many of us in different "degrees" of transition. Some have managed to go all the way. Others are at diffefent stages of the journey. Some still haven't decided what the journey is. Possibly you are in the later group.
Many TG/TS people cannot transition when they wish for all sorts of reasons. Some of us have known that our biological sex was wrong from a very early age. Some at different time points in their life.

We are all gloriously different. You can now safely explore your feelings and emotions. You are now part of the family so feel free to post your problems and issues. You will get feedback - not always hearing what you want to hear!

Cindy James

[Jay]

Welcome to Susans TQ!

Jay

[gennee]

Welcome to the site,TQ. I see that you are taking more steps in your journey. I'm a CD  and enjoy every minute of dressing.

Gennee

[tinkerbell]

Hello TQ and welcome to Susan's! 

Thanks so much for introducing yourself.  Please take a few moments to get familiar with all the boards of the site.  You might also wish to go to the Announcements section and review The Site Terms of Service and rules to live by, Post Ranks, and The Standard Terms & Definitions to help you with some knowledge about our site.  We look forward to your future posts and participation.  Enjoy your stay! 

tink

[Janet_Girl]

Hi TQ,   

Welcome to our little family. Over 1900 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion. Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers.  Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now.  And it is always nice to have another member.   

Janet

[K8]

Welcome.

Keeping a secret is tough.  It's wonderful you have a place to dress.  Although I now think I am TS, for years I thought I was a cross-dresser.  I never went out of the house dressed until lately.  (That was liberating!)  I was married twice and both wives knew about my cross-dressing.  It's very hard when you can't talk to anyone. 

I bought most of my clothes from catalogs, but I've found that buying in person usually isn't a problem.  Most people who sell women's clothes are used to men buying some of them.  (One counsellor I had years ago got exasperated with me and burst out: But lots of men wear women's clothes!  That alone was worth the money.)  Most sales people will be neutral and professional, a few will be very helpful, and a few will give you the hairy eyeball.  For those last few, just hold your chin up and don't buy from them again.  The customer is always right.

Life is a journey to find ourselves.

Cheers,
Kate

[Tranquillity]

Thank you all for the welcome.

I have gone to some stores in the area and looked around and purchased some stuff. I did my legs Monday morning, no more hair, my Control Top panty hose feel much better and looks better with out all that hair underneath. But that was the easy part. Today I had a meeting at 10 am I slept till 9:45 jumped in the shower and was looking for my glasses when my wife walked into my office!!! Here I am naked shaved legs toenails painted and she pops in. I was like OH CRAPPOLA. But I got past it. Grabbed my cloths off a nearby chair and asked her to look for my shirt. I had socks on and pants before she found the shirt.

Ah what fun!!

thanks again for the welcome. I just have to laugh at it. I was panicing Must of been a sight to see.

[Tranquillity]

Wow. its been a long time since I posted. Although I have read many of your post.

I just wanted to update you all on my life and how things are going.

My marriage, if we want to call it that, has pretty much ended and not due to my feeling of Femininity or choice of dress. I was told  late last week that she wanted a divorce. She has changed she said and has become independent and does not need me. It is tough. I am stressed and upset over this. However this has helped me make a decision to see a Therapist.

I had my first Consultation and talked to her about all kinds of stuff. The last thing we talked about was my sexuallity issues and how I feel in my head. I told her straight out. I Told her I hate being male and have for over a year. I told her what I could get out in the last 10 minutes of our time. She was actually very responsive and said she would love to help me discover my true self and work on this with me. I cant wait till our next appt. Finally I have been able to share this with one other person.

When I was talking to my mom the other day telling her how much I hate being a guy, the potential divorce and all I hinted at my feelings. I told her, "you think the long hair and my nails growing are just a wim I have" then before She hung up she said "you will always be my son and I love you" and I had to have the last word in a way and said Or maybe another daughter. she just snickered and said Whatever i still love you.

So that made me happy.


I could ramble on forever  but I wont.

Be safe  TQ

[K8]

Hi, TQ.  Welcome back.  I'm glad that your mother is supportive and that you have begun counseling.

Read the rules of the site (under announcements).  If you want to meet people personally, find a support group near you.  There should be plenty if you are in a large metropolitan area.  (I know people meet through the internet, but it is fraught with dangers.   Be careful.)

Good luck on your journey.

- Kate

[Tranquillity]

Ok so I am away for a few day at a professional seminar. I unfortunatly have to be Full male as 1. I am still struggling with alot of issues. 2. People here know me as male only. SO anyway poinof ths post which made me feel kinda Good Inside.

I was at dinner eating and talking with a few others from the industry. Well I imitateda lady I worked for and the guy acrss from me Looked at me with his jaw on the table and said "Holy ->-bleeped-<-, If I was not looking at you I could of sworn that was a girls voice". I was all Proud of myself inside, Although I truly thought it sounded like crap. I just told him that I have had practice imitating her having worked for her many years.

I was in shock to in a way. LOL I just need to perfect it now I guess.

Just a bit of a funny thing that happened to me I wated to share.

[K8]

Cool, TQ.  Voice is one of the hardest things to get right.  It must have really perked you up.

- Kate