About me, Janet Merai Aila

[Janet Merai]

Hi people, my transgendered name is Janet Merai Aila and I hate my real name but if anyone wants to know it just ask.

I began feeling different at around age 4 or 5 and it all started to deepen or become more obvious at around age 14.
When I was 19, I found out who I truly am (a lesbian trapped in a guys body) and came out to my gay friend and he was a bit shocked but kind of didn't believe me at first.

It was a few years that I went through doing drag and other womanly things that I found I loved being a woman and still do, and my gay friend believes me and helped me to achieve who I want to become.

I am 24 and recently got a job so I plan to begin my path to become a woman.

What do I consider myself?
I look at myself as one of those hardcore "very feminine" and very "glamorous" kind of girls.
The idea of being just SLIGHTLY masculine makes me VERY uncomfortable and I cannot stand doing male stereotypes or anything belonging to men.

My style is on the darker gothic and emo style mixed, but of course without the hate the world attitude, and I enjoy my life with my girlfriend who I have yet to move into with.

Other than that I face problems with my parents and some family, but this world is full of open minded and nice people (I came out to a friend at work on the first day and it went very well) thus I plan to make friends and start my new life and throw my male life out of the window, permanently.

Oh and Janet came from Janet Jackson a long time ago after creating a character of mine (me in furry form), Merai and Aila came from me just creating names with no stereotypical or meaning to the name :3

In full, my female name is "Janet Merai Aila" though most call me Janet Merai.

So girls, what are your stories?

[Saraloop]

I think usually this type of post is done in the introductions.

But, nice to meet ya.  I like the Gothic style too. Care to elaborate how you felt different at 4 or 5? I'm curious about how young like notice something with that..
As for me, I'm gender queer and age-dysphoric. I'm slightly confused about alot of issues with gender and stuff, but I'm open to many possibilities.
Have fun talking on the forums with people you can relate to, there should be lots of em.

[Janet Merai]

Sorry about that Saraloop, I have gone to so many forums its kind of standard for me to be familiar with websites :3

When I was 4 or 5, things like playing with G.I. Joe toys and Army Men like toys never went well with me at all, so I would play with barbie dolls or other toys catered to girls and related more to girls when we met them (such as girl talk and tea parties)

My brothers would do boy-ish like things such as play with toys catered to war and other action based things.

Video games that involved beating people up (Mortal Kombat) never really appealed to me and I took into playing games with more problem-solving skills which I loved.

I just got into other things that most boys didn't.

[Saraloop]

 I see. Sounds similar to other stories I've seen on this forum.

Me I played with whatever was given to me. Though I did also want what I didn't have.