feelin' kinda guilty!

[bigbreastlover4269]

 

Y'know like how when people talk to other people on the internet, they don't always use their real identities? Well... I did this last night and I feel sort of guilty for decieving somebody. So I was talking to this guy last night via gmail chatroom. A long while ago, a made a gmail account with my ideal profile on it, not my real information. So... about a month or so later, some guy found my email adress and started messaging me. Not that I'm into men anyway. I'm a lesbian or a female identified lesbian (physically male) So we were chatting last night. I took on my ideal female personally while communicating with this guy.
You can be whoever you want on the internet, really. But I'm still feelin kinda guilty that I lied, too bad you can physically be whoever you wanna be...
 
I DON'T LIKE MEN at all! I don't do men and never will! But a part of this made me feel some type of special way. That I was communicating with someone who really belives that I'm a female! It felt like somebody really saw me as my ideal girl and I liked it! Hey! It'll prolly feel the same way if I was talking to a woman... I hope... or better yet better! Hey but then again this was prolly a woman posing as a man *shrugs with open wide eyes*?!

but that just goes to show you the golden rule of talking to people on the internet; 7/10 times, people are NOT always who they claim to be, Thoughts?

[imaz]

Wouldn't worry about it. Don't really fancy men much myself but I enjoy flirting with them in real life and sometimes here on the Net. No big deal.

[bigbreastlover4269]

Thanks.

[Jaimey]

Don't feel guilty!  I did that on a local site and got an email buddy out of it.  It was nice to be treated the way I felt.  ...I was able to avoid meeting him and he eventually moved away. 

[sd]

The internet is as real as you want it to be.

What that means is that it is what you perceive it to be. If he believes he was talking to a woman, then he had a wonderful evening talking to a woman. He got what he was looking for. Now had you ended it and then told him that you were not a woman, that would have been deceptive as you ruined his fantasy and illusion. You are a woman, talking as a woman. In NEITHER case was your physical sex involved, as it should be, it is a meeting of the minds. What physical shape a person takes offline is irrelevant unless you intended to meet.  Don't feel bad, you were being yourself, as was he.

Think of it as a book, you can go anywhere and do anything through words. Is a story that touches you any less real be it fiction or non-fiction? The feelings evoked are real and make the story real regardless of the content. The same applies here, you both created a story that evoked real feelings.

By the way, talking to people online can be a good way to see if your speech patterns raise any suspicions.
Post Merge: April 22, 2009, 08:15:46 PM
If you want a similar experience try Second Life where half the women are men, and all the men are horny (okay most).

[bigbreastlover4269]

Reading your post, i just got the jist of your post. Especially with the book analogy. He may've felt excited about talking to a girl via the internet but I wouldn't be stupid enough to screw it all up and reveal that I'm just transgender posing as a female.

I will also bring up this good point...
Since you brung up the good point of physical appearance being of irrelevance, then what if the person on the other end asks for pictures? Well... the guy from last night did ask me if I had any picture but I came up with the good excuse that I'm a bit shy posting my pictures over the internet. But like you said, unless we intened to meet personally.
I identify as a woman but right now, I feel kinda gay talking to a man via the internet. How I am now feeling this way is unknown but I'll quickly get over it so don't worry. I just wanted to feel like a woman, that's all. In fact, I'mma try talking to a woman.

Well... I don't really mind talking to guys being that I talk to guys about general stuff in school all the time but with the internet strangers I won't flirt or anything like that being that I don't do men.
Just as long as he's not posting pics of his (certain male reproductive organ) then I'm cool.

And I really like your book anology because when you write the book, you control who everyone is, what they do, their persona and the environment around them, NO LIMITS except for the ones you make, and the same kinda do apply to the 'net.

PS Leslie, I tried Second Life. Too many restrictions and things that I don't like about it. It's nothing like the real world, although your first name can be whatever you want it to be they make you choose a last name, it's hard to opperate for new users, and you need a freakin video card to run the official application!
If it was anything like the real world, like making my SL character live in Philadelphia, then I could be a little more interested in it. With all those restrictions, "Screw it, I quit!"

So I made my own "Second Life" project... my ideal lifestyles, my ideal self, my ideal house, the school i go to, where i live, used to live, born, all that good stuff... stuff that's not corelated with my current lifestyles that is.

[sd]

When I talk to people online I never give a picture, or name or even a close proximity of my location. Even back when I was still trying to be a man, I ended up with too many weirdos.

Never give them anything.