Logan,(I like you name by the way, very strong) as I read you story,
I could not help but think how similiar it sounded to the story of a person
I used to know, who was born intersexed. I'm not saying that you were also
but because of your Mom's efforts to keep the details of your youth from you
and her secretly lacing your food with estrogen, I suspect this might be the case.
If it turns out that it is true that you were born different, don't judge you Mom
to harshly. She was probably coerced by a man, with letters after his name,
into this course of action. He most likely told her, he could FIX you. After all,
how could an all knowing doctor be wrong in these matters?
Are you familiar with a book titled,
"As Nature Made Him: The Boy Who Was Raised As A Girl"
It is the tragic story of David Reimer. He was not born intersexed but was
the victim of a botched circumcision and was further victimized by a series of
quack doctors throughout his life. His mother was also victimized, in that she
was convinced by the doctors, that David could be transformed into a girl through
surgery and hormone therapy. Sadly they were all proven horribly wrong,
because David always KNEW within himself that he was not a girl,
no matter how they tried to convince him differently.
It might be useful, in your search for the truth, to obtain a copy of this book,
read it for yourself and then give it to your Mom. If you haven't discussed your
Gender Dysphoria with her, don't be afraid to bring the subject up because considering
that she has been lacing your food with estrogen she most likely knows your
having gender issues. No matter what, you have the absolute right to know
exactly what medical procedures have been performed on you and why!
Welcome to Susan's and I wish you luck in
your quest and happiness in your life.
