Delusions of Grandeur

[cassie09]

Have any of you experienced delusions of grandeur? that is to say, you have these amazing fantasies of how you will look post-transition, etc. only to realize that they are just that - fantasy, and that you are deluding yourself?

I think my story is quite funny in hindsight but also incredibly saddening. Ive had this fantasy ever since I dreamt of transitioning that Id be this beautiful girl in the end... specifically that Id look like Megan Fox. So much so that in my FFS consults ive requested surgery to look like her as much as possible.. I know, creepy.

Having said that, I think I had the best response ever today in an e-mail. One FFS surgeon pretty much told me to cut my ->-bleeped-<- out, and to accept that I will just in the end look like a feminized version of me, like the twin sister I never had.. not Megan Fox, damn it

He was nice about it though, telling me that he could do as much as possible to feminize me but that he can only do so much. My skeleton just is far too wide to look like Megan Fox who has a far narrower head and that features on her would look horrible on me and vice versa.

[Nero]

I think it's pretty normal early on to have to imagine what you'd look like as a woman/man. If your features, coloring, etc are close to Megan Fox makes sense you'd see something like her in your vision. I'm glad that your surgeon was straight with you.
I still think I'm going to look like Jackie Gleason. 

[cassie09]

I think it's pretty normal early on to have to imagine what you'd look like as a woman/man. If your features, coloring, etc are close to Megan Fox makes sense you'd see something like her in your vision. I'm glad that your surgeon was straight with you.
I still think I'm going to look like Jackie Gleason. 

the funny part is that i felt i looked like an obese version of her, and that all my excess face fat was just that fat. However my prospective surgeon disagrees. He considers us night and day and believes my head is just big haha. Otherwise, we have very similiar skin, hair, eyes, etc. As well as huge lips

[Nero]

Well, you may end up kind of like her then. However you end up, will be uniquely you and gorgeous in your own right.

[tekla]

As Nichole once said, using different but similar people, if you go into it looking like Warren Sapp you are not going to come out the other side looking like Shawn Johnson.

And if your going to be Jackie Gleason, you better save up, that guy was always dressed to the nines, maybe one of the best dressed guys in show biz ever.  In his day he made the best dressed list for a number of years.

[Janet_Girl]

I don't have any delusions of myself.  I will look as I do and that is fine.  My evil twin's sister?  Ok, but I still like I am pretty in my own right.

And I always though Jackie was sexy in his own right. 

Janet

[Suzy]

I think we all go through that at some phase.  It is nothing to worry about.  It is hard not to because out hopes get so high.  The problem is when we look in the mirror and see someone resembling a guy and it all falls apart.  I think the hardest part is just learning to be comfortable with who we are.  I had this odd fantasy of wanting to look like Olivia Newton John in Grease.  Well, needless to say, it did not happen.  But I just have to be content with passing most of the time.

Kristi

[Nero]

And if your going to be Jackie Gleason, you better save up, that guy was always dressed to the nines, maybe one of the best dressed guys in show biz ever.  In his day he made the best dressed list for a number of years.

Damn. Looks like I'm outta luck there. My bank account is hurting and I don't know the first thing about clothes. I'm still dressing like a kid in hoodies and khakis.

[Tristan]

Oh yeah I did at the beginning. But then I had a cosmic reality check. My parents and such explained to me that I more than likely would never be passable or attractive. But I don't care to much about that anymore, kinda come to terms with it

[tekla]

The word always was that Jackie hated dressing in the bus driver outfit, but did love cashing the checks, but on his show in Miami, and on the train trips his company did, he was styling, right down to the ever present boutonniere.

As ZZ Top said:
Clean shirt, new shoes
and I don't know where I am goin' to.
Silk suit, black tie,
I don't need a reason why.
They come runnin' just as fast as they can
coz every girl crazy 'bout a sharp dressed man.

Gold watch, diamond ring,
I ain't missin' a single thing.
And cufflinks, stick pin,
when I step out I'm gonna do you in.
They come runnin' just as fast as they can
coz every girl crazy 'bout a sharp dressed man.

[Kyla]

Damn. Looks like I'm outta luck there. My bank account is hurting and I don't know the first thing about clothes. I'm still dressing like a kid in hoodies and khakis.

I still dress like that, I guess I don't know much about dressing up all "fancy" like. 

[Alyx.]

Oh, yeah, well, you know, I think we all do that to an extent.

[jillblum]

I definitely have those issues too. Every time I hear that dysphoric voice kick in I remember it's responsible for the roller coaster I used to live on. It's about real beauty love. Pass to yourself (even if you still have stubble.) The world at large doesn't really matter when you love yourself girl. GG's aren't happy with all of their features either. It's not their resemblance to a celebrity, or lack thereof which defines their femininity.

Oh to practice what we preach I get a little better at it every day.

Nero,
Hang out in a department store suits/men's collections dept. Those sales people are bored right now and have time to chat you up about sexy man clothes. They're full of useful info and it's free, unless you buy the suit!

[Michelle.]

Damn. Looks like I'm outta luck there. My bank account is hurting and I don't know the first thing about clothes. I'm still dressing like a kid in hoodies and khakis.

Books on fashion, "Queer Eye for the Straight Guy." Or spend about $10-15 dollars at Barnes and Noble on the title of your choice.

Little $$$$$ in the ol' checking account, eh?   Goodwill type stores or ebay. JCPenney fashionable yet "cheap," any Macy's mega sale.

[tekla]

Its all about GQ, always has been.

[xsocialworker]

Used to be Woody Allen, now I'm Diane Keaton

[stacyB]

Not only does it happen to us, but the letdown increases as we get older. 25 years ago I easily passed, now age has caught up with me and sometimes I feel a bit self conscious. What I see in my eye and what I see in the mirror diverge over time. But the truth is we are our own harshest and worst critics. To the world around me I am just another chick passing by...

[Paulina]

I never really wanted to look like a celebrity (besides Lohan) but the hottest woman version of myself. That's fine too.

[Tammy Hope]

Well yeah! Not that I realistically expect it but I do look for possible matches.

Along those lines - Kim Komando put up a link to a very fun site

http://www.morphthing.com/

I found a few celebrity women on there with facial shapes kinda like mine (albeit with a lot less fat!) and have some pics that kind of make me thing "best case scenario" if I won the lottery and could afford unlimited surgery lol.

I thought Elizabeth Montgomery worked out really well...

[Paulina]

^^ Yeah I see it in the lips and the nose, and eyebrows.