Why do I want to be a girl? (lots of whining)

[NicholeW.]

Woman has worked out nicely for me.

But ymmv.

Perhaps just being who you feel you are will be the best way, rather than worrying too much about a formal designation?

[fae_reborn]

Fae: When I read that you think I am a girl I really got some weird reactions from it, almost like a kind of panic, felt like I would puke if I thought about it and try to let the idea sink into my mind, felt like deleting everything I had written and my account and never come back again.

My deepest apologies Anima, that certainly was not my intention at all.  I was just pointing out that a lot of what you're describing is similar to what I (and others here) experienced prior to our own transitions.  Perhaps I didn't convey that well enough, so I am sorry I made you feel that way.  It's certainly not my place to label you one way or the other, that is for you and you alone to decide.

Please don't feel sick or pathetic, because there is nothing wrong with being true to yourself.

(Sorry for the delay in replying, my internet has been down for the past week.)

[dominik]

anyone else back this up?

Yes indeed, you couldn't wish a more classical example than myself. It happens all  what you're saying, my birth hormones seem to make me really sick, in contrast with the opposite gender hormones, which make me feel like if I was at last normal and happy (and normal and happy).

And back to our troubled orc-fighting girl,

Hmm, do hormones control mental things?

Yes they do, some layer of your personality is the direct influence of hormones, aggressive behavior is classical of testosterone, increased perception is estrogen (so much we often say women have a sixth sense). All these revelations make me feel a bit like an android sometimes, also they make me wonder where is my real self and, if some layer of my personality is hormones, perhaps all the other layers are just other chemicals... nature's chemistry.

[nathan]

Sounds like a traumatic experience. Made me think of a dream I had the other day where I was completely covered in thick, dark, curly manly man body hair and looked almost like a gorilla. And I was just going "oh no, oh no!"

That's pretty much my every waking moment.  Well, maybe not that extreme, but almost.   

Yay for alcohol!   

Anima, you've been saying stuff that sounds a lot like me.  Wool.  I mean weird. And cool.  Weird and cool.