Hello everyone, my name is Kami.
First of all I really don't know how to go about saying this because I have just recently come to several revelations in the last few years of my life. Besides confiding in my girlfriend, I haven't yet told anyone about my stand on my own gender and sexual issues. I have joined these boards to help myself open up and be able to talk to those similar to me and who can understand where I am coming from.
I am genetically a female and just turned twenty one this year. I have a loving girlfriend whom I am blessed to have by my side and support me for who I am; which is transsexual.
For the last week I have been giving serious thought on making a sex change. This is something I have been interested in since before puberty. Ever since I first heard about it I found the idea fascinating and compelling for someone in my circumstance. I have always been uncomfortable as a woman and have been considered a tomboy. My mother used to joke around with me and call me her "little boy" because I was not like the other girls and had a consistent male likeness in my personality and interests.
I have not grown out of this. Over time my insecurities in being female have become worse. I feel how I dress in act is to please my family and peers and is no longer about me. I would like to be happy and I'm trying to take steps in order to do that.
I have never been ashamed of being a woman and I think its nothing to be ashamed about. I think females are wonderful and obviously my girlfiend is a woman. I just dont think continuing on as one is right for me. its not who I am.
I think one of the biggest problems I face is revealing myself to my family.
If anyone made it through this post thank you for listening heh. Sorrry for the length I have a lot of issues weighing on my chest as of late. I am trying to figure things out. I hope I can do some soul searching here.
