I wanted to share something positive. I think that my dysphoria has vanished!
Before I get started let say this, I know most people online or in the real world dooesn't understand where I'm coming from!
I,m not more intelligent, but my way of thinking is far different than most. I'm very self aware (Which sadly more people should be in society) and have a very deep outlook on everything in life.
How I have come to the conclusion my dysphoria is gone (For what it's worth) Is I came to realize that what is is just that. My biggest tip I can give you is, forget that you're a girl! Drop it! And go live yor life!
A GG girl doesn't walk around THINKING about being a girl, they just are, that's it.
Well me or you are no different! Sure it sucks for those of us that hate the parts we were born with, but oh frickin well. I refuse to spend my life in misery over something that is out of my control(To a certain degree). Just maintain yourself as best as possible with what you got.
If you do this, you will be more beautiful on the outside. I figure things will work out better if I just stand and walk away and begin to live my live according to my native/core personality/being.
I'm more full time than I ever have been even though I'm not passable! I just don't care anymore.
Would I die for her? (Me) I asked myself. The answer is yes.
Once you lose your fear of reprisal, stand and walk not looking back and not sweating the small stuff. You may be more at peace. Again, IT IS WHAT IT IS! You can not change this right? So set yourself free.
I quit drinking by the way! It's been two months! I would get drunk on the weekend blaming the world for my woes of being trapped. While some of it may be truth most of it was me and my perception of the world. I was becoming a very ugly person. Yes, if you have a bad outlook on life, are a whiner and constantly complain as I did, it tends to push people away. It made me very ugly.
I was more succesful being myself when I didn't know I was biologically a girl so to speak! It was easy to pick up a date! I was happier! Because I didn't know. Now I'm happier because I'm in that same frame of mind is when I didn't know! Meaning I'm just being myself as I used to be and forgetiing all of the hang-ups and gripes!
Forget who you are and go begin to live your native life.
P.S. Take your outward appearence slowly (make up, clothes, etc). You MUST be able to handle ridicuel properly. You have to know through and through that if you decide to where make-up in public one day and some one ridicuels you, you better be ready to stand. I would say something like "Thankyou! I like it to!" then leave it at that.
But if you back down, it's going to be worse, you must stand and realize you owe NO ONE an explanation! It is what it is and you are who you are.
Hope this helps someone. ooxx
