I'm not really sure where to start. I am a very happily married man. I have no desire what so ever to become a woman. I just have this thing... At times I have no desire to dress but other times its all I can think of. Lately I've felt more or less like I'm going crazy. Really I have no reason to feel like this as my life is about as perfect as it can get. I think my dressing and my lack of acceptance for who I am has a lot to do with it but there are probably other things in there somewhere. I've decided to see a psychiatrist and have been going through a list of local doctors in my area that take my insurance. I'm totally lost as to which one to pick. I thought I'd ask the experts here. My biggest fear is that I'll end up with a doctor who thinks I'm a weirdo or something. Should I pick a younger or older doctor? A man or woman? Maybe these things don't even matter?
The last 5 years have been kind of rough for me. I lost a good job first, was unable to get a good one after that, filed bankruptcy, moved across the country twice. As a child I was often picked on, I have ADD, I try not to feel bad for myself but maybe some of these things contribute to me being sad lately and feeling overwhelmed with life, and like I said earlier, lack of acceptance for myself which is causing a low self esteem. I realize this may be a little more heavy subject than normally discussed here but I'm a little lost here

Can anyone give me some good advice? Thanks!