OMG another hole

[Nigella]

Hi again,

OK I've been puzzled for a while with my diagnosis as that of a Transsexual. I've posted here about my conundrum and the lack of response from my GID clinic to investigate further re my hormone levels.

I was reading through some other posts today and came across one that suggested examining yourself down below (I have male genitalia). So I thought well what am I supposed to look like. Went on google (this is going to gross people out) because I thought I need to see what males are supposed to look like near the anus. Well ok I thought seen the pics (all done in the best possible taste, lol). I'm a little different from them and excuse me if I become a little graphic. Above my anal opening there seems to be another one, very small in which I seem to be able to put my finger in a little and then it gets a little tender but seems as though it could go further. It begins to become painful. It seems very small and tight.

Any thougths

Stardust   

[LivingInGrey]

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Not a pro here...

But you might want to have that looked at.



Best of luck.

[heatherrose]

Hmmmm...WOW
Yet another twist and turn
down your own rabbit hole
(no pun intended)

Do you consider yourself physically healthy?
I doubt a "hole" would just appear.
If it were me, I'd bring this discovery
to a doctors attention
I wouldn't be surprised at a
diagnosis of (IMHO)
(warning: I'm gonna say it)
Intersexualism.

[MeghanAndrews]

Wow, I would have thought you would have found that in the shower or at a doctor appointment or something. How would being IS change how you live your life, would it?

[heatherrose]

How would being IS change how you live your life...

Perhaps a dance of
"Joyous Vindication"
would be in order?

[LordKAT]

or a fear of not getting that GRC.

[findingreason]

Well, it could explain some things possibly? Was it the very first time in your life that you examined that area?

[V M]

Well, yeah, you should get that looked at. There may be more there than you first considered. If so, guess who's the lucky girl 

[Nigella]

Well just an update,

Been to doc's for an embarrassing examination. He wants me to go for an ultra sound and ex ray and chromosomal testing but he thinks my extra bits is a "not fully developed virginal opening" had to have an internal OMG.

Anyway my notes he said going back to my teens mentioned my parents taking me several times to the docs for growth pains in the breast areas. So I didn't dream that up. Thank goodness I'm not going mad, lol. He also said that he could not detail why it was just put down to bone growth at the time and not followed up. He also said that my medical records for that period are not complete. So I don't know anything else.

It seems to explain quite a lot and I am a little angry that all my life I have been assigned male. I'm not going to force anything concerning my original diagnosis as transsexual, if I do I will not be able to get a change of birth certificate here in uk. Well, unless the intersex label is forced upon me.  I'm just going to let sleeping dogs lie.

Stardust     

[heatherrose]

One way or an other, it is best and your right that you know your medical/
physical history. What is done with that information is completely up
to you. Don't let "them" mar your beauty with any stinking label.

[rejennyrated]

Well having recently been in almost exactly the same situation - mine was only discovered due to a recurrent unexplained abcess in the area between my neovagina and my anus. I had to have endocrine and other blood tests and a full pelvic and internal exam. As I have now lived for nearly 30 years as post op woman (SRS in my early twenties now nearly 50) I was rather startled to receive a formal diagnosis that I was actually intersexed and it had never previously been picked up.

In fact it turns out that the surgeon who did my original SRS found certain "anomilies" but decided at the time that it wasn't worth confusing the situation by bringing them to my attention. - which all just goes to show that these things can and do get missed at birth - and doctors don't always tell you the whole truth later on. So you have my sympathy and you are certainly not alone.

Although to be honest, personally I'm still trying to work out what practical difference it really makes other than feeling sad that my mother died without knowing the truth.

[Nigella]

Well having recently been in almost exactly the same situation - mine was only discovered due to a recurrent unexplained abcess in the area between my neovagina and my anus. I had to have endocrine and other blood tests and a full pelvic and internal exam. As I have now lived for nearly 30 years as post op woman (SRS in my early twenties now nearly 50) I was rather startled to receive a formal diagnosis that I was actually intersexed and it had never previously been picked up.

In fact it turns out that the surgeon who did my original SRS found certain "anomilies" but decided at the time that it wasn't worth confusing the situation by bringing them to my attention. - which all just goes to show that these things can and do get missed at birth - and doctors don't always tell you the whole truth later on. So you have my sympathy and you are certainly not alone.

Although to be honest, personally I'm still trying to work out what practical difference it really makes other than feeling sad that my mother died without knowing the truth.

rejenneyrated,

Thank you so much for your reply I was beginning to think I was the only one who had lived so long without this being discovered. I know the doctors seem to hide things particularly if it goes back to my era, a looooooog time ago, lol. Late 50's isn't exactly a period of doctor patient communication and freedom of information. Any way I too am not sure if it really changes things as far as transition goes just really mad for all the lost years really.

Sorry your mum didn't know at the time but maybe she did.

And to others, yeah, it doesn't really matter what label doc's give you. We are human beings like anyone else. We bleed like other people, we hurt like other people do, we cry like other people and we laugh and smile and love like other people. And created in the image of God like other people are.

May God bless you

Stardust 

[Meshi]

Could be  (not saying you r) that you are partially intersexed.  I was diagnosed at birth. I was born 46xx chromosome and with non functional ovaries.  It has  been not too long ago that i totally transitioned physically.  Might want to go to a good endocrinologist ob/gyn..just a thought. 

[FairyGirl]

There's a condition known as a "coccygeal pit" which sounds similar, ie a hole in the natal cleft or just above, ranging in size from tiny to large. It can be benign or a symptom of an internal cyst. You can Google the term to get more information and photos. Of course your doctor can give you a true diagnosis.

[oniRyan]

There's a condition known as a "coccygeal pit" which sounds similar, ie a hole in the natal cleft or just above, ranging in size from tiny to large. It can be benign or a symptom of an internal cyst...

coccygeal pit... uhm... that's actually a developmental issue in the lower back along the spine (( see also: spina bifida )) ... I've personally had ongoing problems cysts / holes / openings along my lower back not too far from my anus...

this condition (to my knowledge) is unrelated to the other abnormalities I have below the waist ... I really don't want to talk about those (graphic or otherwise... meh)

(( I can barely aford to take care of my MAJOR medical conditions, let alone worry about diagnostic procedures for the specifics of my intersex condition... furthermore, I don't bother worrying about stuff along my lower back or in my genital area unless it's actually on the "list of things my doctor want me to watch for / notify if there are changes" ))

stardust

it's good that you had a checkup / examination. That's the smart thing to do, and OH GOODNESS YES I am all too aware of how embarrasing it can be to have medical examinations of "things below the belt which aren't seen in most of the population"

(( by that, I mean developmental disorders ... intersex or otherwise... meh, I really really really avoid examinations for this stuff when it's not impacting my health negatively ))

Good luck,
Ryan [[ the name I prefer... despite identying LESS male than female ]]