Hi
I'm a Danish TS women age 50 retired in Thailand on Phuket. Ive been on HRT 1 year, and I am very pleased with the result, so far.
I knew since early childhood, that I was supposed to be born as a girl. My parent knew from a very early age that I had a GID issue, but put a lot of pressure on me both physical and psychical, and I must say they did a very good job. So good that I for many years I was able to live my life as a very Macho Man. Buried my GID problem in alcohol, drugs and a lot of anger to the world, occasionally I got some relief in cross dressing, but mostly it just added to the self hate and my anger. I could not come on terms with the man in a dress, I saw in the mirror, it was just not me.
In the beginning of the 80s I meet a wonderful girl, I am sure she safe my life. We got a beautiful daughter, now age 25. I drop the drugs the crimes and most of the fighting, cut down on the alcohol, got a good job, but still very Macho with big bikes and fast cars. Living my life on a big lie still occasionally cross dressing in hiding.
Well you can only hide you true self for some times, when you live together with another person, sooner or later every things comes out in the open. She discovered my female clothing.
We tried to come to some kind of arrangement with my cross dressing/GID
and she was a big help for me in the beginning, but cross dressing from time to time was not enough for me. So I decided to move out 6 years ago. Got a small house 5 miles away, I was starting to meet some TS and TV people, and coming out a little. And still seeing my ex i the weekends from time to time when she came over for dinner and stayed for the night, there where no sex anymore just a good friendship.
Then I got cancer in my back, big operation, chemo, radiation, in and out from hospital for a year. Learning to walk again dealing with a lot of pain and medicine, lost my job, had to take an early retirement.
So be curse of the climate in Denmark is very bad for my back i moved first 1 year on Sri Lanka, and now 2 years here on Phuket. Finally in a nearly ok shape again, and on my way to realize my true me.
The HRT has really help me a lot mentally, to get peace in my mind, and next month I start my Laser so finally i am on my way. Only really big thing I have left, is to speak with my daughter, about my GID. And that scare the ->-bleeped-<- out of me. Since I have not been speaking to my parents, brother and sister for over 20 years, and properly never will, that is not a problem, but if she can not accept my new life. That will break my heart. I have tried to a lot of times, but always chickend out and since she comes on vacancy ones a year I know I can not postpone it any longer.
Well that was a little about me
Hugs Here from Thailand
Jeanett
