hi ladies

[jesse]

hi there my name is jessie

So where to begin i am just starting this journey and as i sit here reading your intros and posts i feel like crying. A part of me has found home if that makes any sense. I am 42 Married with four kids 3 of whom are grown and i cant believe i have lived this lie as long as i have. Now im faced with undoing all of this so jessie can live. i dont want to bleed all of over this forum and at the same time i want to screem im free. I have kept her inside of me long enough but its getting harder to do, at times it almost feels like a split personality. I guess i should start seeing a theripist i have gotten some numbers for electrolosis down and will be calling them today somehow i have to face the finacial issues and eventually the inevitable splitt with my wife. this really tears me up not the loss of my partner but the thought that they will all hate me. any thoughts from older girls would be appriciated thanks for letting me see into your world
jessie

[Jay]

Welcome to Susans Jessie! 

It seems like you have a few mountains to over come until you can truely let her free, but it will all be worth it in the end.

We are all a family here and we will give support where we can.

*hugs*

Jay

[Cindy]

Hi Jessie

Welcome honey. Yes it's a long road and not one taken easily. Read the threads and intros etc. Many of us have similar stories. Sit on down and join in. You've got a home now. You are among friends and family, we understand what it is like

Hugs
Cindy

[Miniar]

Hello and Welcome.

*hugs* (seemed like you could use one)

One step at a time.

[Debra]

Welcome Jessie, glad to have you! Yes you are home here. It sounds like it's been a long time of yearning for you but I would still suggest to not rush things. Make sure to see a therapist first!

And feel free to browse here and talk to us, that's what we're here for.

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Jessie,

Welcome to our little family. Over 3200 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.

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Blessed Be.
Janet

[jesse]

well i made my appointment with the electrolisis office so tomarrow i finally get to start working on getting rid of the growth on my face. this has been an eyesore for me since i started growing the infamous 5 oclock when i was 16. i hope it dont hurt to much. i thought about laser but couldnt get any doc to say it was permanent so no go there. My biggest fear is she will ask questions like what made you decide to do this...... um i think i would pee myself and run out of the building. any ways im from colorado anyone know a good theripist that works with transgenders i really am shy and right now questions from docs or anyone that dosnt understand embarress the heck out of me
jessie

[Nero]

welcome Jesse. <offers hand> You've come to the right place. congrats on your electro appointment! first step is always the hardest.

[jesse]

quick question for those that have had ffs done can they provide a computerized image of what the surgery expected results will look like this is a big concern because i dont want to spend several thousand dollars on this only to find out it it only marginally improves passability
jessie

[K8]

Welcome to Susan's, Jessie.

I'm getting laser to get rid of the dark hairs and electrolysis to get rid of the white ones.  The laser will probably need a touchup a couple of times a year once she's managed to get rid of them the first time, but laser is a lot faster than electrolysis.  (I figure I'll schedule the touchup around the time I get my teeth cleaned.)

I've only dealt with one laser gal and one electrolygist, but neither asked why I wanted to do it.  They are both very used to dealing with TG clients (and non-TG clients) so there is no reason to be shy with them.  In fact even though both are straight I've gotten some good information from both of them.

Therapy should be one of your first priorities.  It helps to sort things out in your head and helps you over the rough spots (and there will be a few ).

Good luck on your journey, Jessie.

- Kate

[jesse]

ok so i have decided i will combine laser and electrolisis i made and went to my first appointment and wouldnt you know it the waiting area was full of great looking ladies and 1 trans like me guess who i sat next to lol any rate it wasnt to bad was surprised how hot the machine felt on my face but the pain was tolerable my first appointment was 15 mins and this lady charges by the minute mind you 40 half hour and 70 by the hour she does however do 5 hr blocks which will be nice to speed things along my next appointment is thursday and im looking forward to it already
jessie

[K8]

Good for you, Jesse.  I still have some whiskers, but fewer all the time.  I have found it very satisfying to get a smoother and smoother face and have less and less to shave.

And I guess they didn't throw you out for being TG?  (Just teasing. )  That first appointment is hard - not the appointment itself but getting yourself to go to it.  From now on it should be smooth sailing, at least in this aspect.

My first appointment there was a guy waiting with what looked like at least three days growth.  He kept trying to hide his face, poor dear.  Since then it has always just been women, most of whom give me a big, friendly smile when I come in.

Good luck, hun.  You're on your way.

- Kate

[jesse]

thanks kate all of you are my courage until i find my own i listen to what you have gone threw in your posts and i think if thaey can so can i
jessie
Post Merge: September 22, 2009, 03:01:56 AM
ok so i called this theripist ... hello i need help left message...nothing says i dont care like no call back lol...745pm hi this is your theripist im not taking any new clients but i can recomend ... kewls will she call me back in a timely manner good thing im not a really crazy.... 911 please hold....elevator music ..... what is your emergency ... are you there  hello ..... id like to report a dead body... how do you know its dead... cause i put it there... my  theripist couldnt answer her phone kind of like you...
hopefully ill be able to reach this lady lol all kidding aside hopefully i can get a appointment so i can get on hrt soon hugs all wish me luck
jessie
Post Merge: September 23, 2009, 05:23:40 AM
yay introduced myself to my new therapist lets see how long it takes before she figures out i need to be committed. next stop hrt.