Being both an aspie and a transman

[Calistine]

I have aspergers syndrome. It makes me have more of a male brain even if I wasnt transgendered. Although transsexuals have difficulty, having aspergers makes it even harder for me to adapt to the change. I sometimes feel a attachment to being female because its who I lived as for all these years. I find this weird because I happily identify as male and when I feel this attachment its like someone who is in a bad relationship but doesn't want to let go because there who they were used to. I think I feel more comfortable with repetition?
Also I feel somewhat guilty because my mom says she feels like Im dying despite the fact that other than my appearance I havent changed at all.
I got to overcome this. Its causing me alot of stress.

[kestin]

I too feel an attachment to being female, I don't think theres anything wrong with that. For me, its apart of who I am and was and usually manifests when talking about womens stuff with other women and forgetting momentarily that I'm not seen as one anymore, lol.

[GamerJames]

I don't necessarily feel an attachment to being female perse (not that that's bad, just not what I feel) but I DO feel an attachment to my old life, just because, it's the only one I've had! lol

I think that if I completely gave up my previous life and pretended it didn't happen, or "rewrote" it in a sense, then that wouldn't be right for me, but others may disagree and I respect that too.

I spent 30 years living as a girl/woman, and even though I realize now that all that time I was still a guy on the inside, I still was seen as a girl to others, treated as a girl, etc. So I can't throw away that aspect of my history without throwing away a large part of what made me who I am today, nor would I want to.

But I don't know if that's the same thing you're saying, just adding my perspective.

[Alex_C]

I just turned 47! Since I'm only 3 months on T that's a LONG time living as a gurl, of some type or another.

Thanks to my clean diet, healthy living, and weekly shot of "vitamin T" my muscles are growing very nicely. I need more recent pics, since as muscular as I was before T, it's at a whole new level now.

And I freakin' love to shop in good old Jo-Anne Crafts, or Michael's, picking out new colors of ribbon (I make my meager living on awareness ribbons right now) and checking out all the other cool stuff there, I grew up having to mend and alter, hem, etc, my clothes and I'm not giving up those good skills! Some "girly" stuff is really cool.

And boy do I get some odd looks from the ladies in those stores!

[Radar]

I just turned 47!

Whoa! You look way younger.

[Kevin]

Whoa! You look way younger.

Seriously! I thought he was 30 at the VERY MOST from the picture(s?) I've seen!

[Alex_C]

I need to get some new pics done, I'll work on it, since I've become a bit more manly since my latest just before T pics were done.

[Kevin]

I need to get some new pics done, I'll work on it, since I've become a bit more manly since my latest just before T pics were done.

It's not that you don't look manly or even that you look like you're 12, you just look like you're in your 20s, not in a bad way!

[Alex_C]

Thanks!