If you can\'t get what you want, get as close as possible

[Princess_Jasmine]

Alright so I have come to decide that I will not be able to transition for a very long time due to severe culture barriers. I have seen a therapist, am eligible for hormones, but because of my family I have not started. I have instead been taking a small amount of anti androgen daily to keep off any more masculinity that will come with puberty. Now, my question is this. If I add a bit of estrogen to the mix to make myself more "in the middle" looking, will this be severely harmful to my body? I want to get as close to a feminine face/body as I can without people completely thinking I am a female. My family is in such denial that even if I look alot more feminine they will be completely ignorant and pretend like its not real (my androgyny) which is an advantage. I must note that I already look a bit androgynous and they accept it completely. Please let me know what you all think. I am going to call the doctor tomorrow for a prescription of estradiol pills. I hate the patches and he is not familiar with injections. Are pills pretty bad and would there be anything I need to know that could harm me in taking them?

God bless you all my brothers and sisters
Post Merge: August 16, 2009, 06:21:04 PM
any replies would really help please!

[jesse]

i would not play with hrt like this t blocker w/o estrogen = bone loss estrogen with t blocker = breast growth i say either do or do not this is your life not your family's
jessica

[Autumn]

Taking finasteride or dutasteride is what most people do, to minimize hair loss or regrow hair. The hormonal effect is relatively minor.

If you block testosterone, you will lose significant muscle mass, your energy levels, sexual function will decrease, and you will probably start breast growth, along with bone density loss.

You will also probably feel compelled to increase your dose and then start taking estrogen, at least I did. It's a slippery slope.

[Chloe]

Are pills pretty bad and would there be anything I need to know that could harm me in taking them?

No, pills are not bad, GO FOR IT and given yer circumstances the only thing I can think of is . . . lol HIDE THEM WELL? 

Happy Stealthing! There's absolutely nothing wrong with a girlish looking boy! 

[tekla]

I need to know that could harm me in taking them?

In that case, I'd ask a doctor/pharmacist and do a hell of a lot of research (and its med stuff, so its going to be long and boring) to try to find out.

I think its good to have an approach that is not "all or nothing" because life seldom turns out that way, and its mentally healthy to know that at least getting close - though its not all the way - is a hell of lot further along then where you were.

[Steph]

You stated in your post:

"...that will come with puberty."

Are we to assume that you are in your early teens, are you of age to make these decisions for yourself??  It would very wrong for anyone on this board to advise you on taking hormones other that the possible results one could generally expect.  And while a therapist may have confirmed that you are eligible for HRT, taking hormones needs to be discussed with a medical doctor.

-={LR}=-

[sweetstars]

As I stated before Adult Family=disposable.
Don't let them manipulate or even come into consideration with regards to transition issues.  If they are, they are not worth having.

[sarahb]

I would have to agree with sweetstars. I've thought about it a lot throughout my life, and have come to the conclusion that family is not based on who you share blood with, it's about who you share love with. If your family is not willing to love you for who you are then why should they be considered family? If they only love you for the image they have in their head of you, then they don't really love you to begin with, they love the image of what you are to them.

Now, I love my family. They love me for who I am. Yes, it's taken some time for them to warm up to the idea of mt being their daughter now instead of their son, but it's becoming less and less of an issue as the months go by. However, I do have two friends whom I consider my family as well. They love me for who I am as well, and we connect on every level. I can talk to them more easily than I can my family.

I would say that if you're going through a doctor to get your prescriptions and the doctor allows it, and checks up regularly like HRT usually goes, then I say go for it. Do what will make you the most confortable in your present situation, while finding a way to overcome it and be free to do what you want down the road. Overall, just be safe in what you do and be happy.

~Sarah