I've always known I was a girl since my earliest memories. I remember when I was around five or six, I would constantly daydream about suddenly having a girls body and being able to do all the things girls were allowed to do.
While my mother was at work when I got home from school, I would dress up in her dresses, undergarments, shoes, etc and play dress-up until shortly before she got home. This went on for many years until I outgrew her clothes.
I have dreamed of tranisitioning before I even knew such things were possible and before I realized that others felt the same way. I had been on a purchase/purge cycle many times out of a sense of guilt and feeling like I was mentally ill or a freak.
My defining moment came a little over a year ago while my wife was out of town visiting her family. I looked up transgender resouces on the internet and went to a transgender store. It took me awhile to get the nerve to actually go in. Once inside I was accepted for who I was, no questions asked. Meeting and talking with other girls made me realize I could pursue my lifelong dream of becoming the girl I always knew I was. It has been a slow start, but it is picking up steam now. Last New Years Eve while having dinner with my wife I just started to cry in the restaurant. At that moment I knew what I had to do and that my destiny was in my hands. This year has seen many changes, but I am still at the beginning of more dramatic changes to come.
So for me it has been a series of events over a lifetime, which led to my defining moment of self-realization last New Years Eve.
Maya
