Hello, people...

[Evan]

I have no idea what to say but wanted to say somthing. I am just glad to find a message board on this.

I have no idea where to start. I am a transexual but I have gotten used to the idea of being unhappy. I pushed my desires to the back burner most of my life and now I have taken a step back to "fix myself". I re-visited my "gender issues" that I always passed off as minor and find that they have played a much larger part in my past and damn near life-long case of depression than I could ever imagine.

I am sure that I will say a bit more later. As of right now, I am at a complete loss for words. I just know that surgery is not really somthing that I would want.The way that my mind works, I would remind myself everyday that this is just "pretend"


not to insult any of you, that is more of a testament as to how hateful I have become of myself than a statement on how I view post-ops.

later...

[LostInTime]

Hi Evan!

Welcome to the board.  Please kick back, pull up a seat, and stay for awhile.

I have been in a very dark place due to my past gender issues and it took awhile to get out of it.  Therapy helped me a lot and then the rest was up to me.

Hope to chat again soon.

LIT

[tinkerbell]

Hi Evan and welcome to Susan's!

The main goal at Susan's is to provide support to anyone who needs it.  We have plenty of valuable information in our wiki and in our reference library for your reading pleasure, so please take a second to visit us there.

Please don't hesitate to ask questions and review the site rules here whenever possible as they can be modified at any time and be effective without prior notification.

We look forward to your future posts.  Enjoy your stay!


tinkerbell

[Kim]

Hello Evan,
  Remember we are all here for support, to give and to receive. Glad to have ya aboard. 

[Buffy]

Hi Evan,

welcome to Susan's.

This is a great site for making friends, seeking advice or just asking questions to all of us here.

There many people along various stages of discovery as to where they lie on the Gender scale, so enjoy your stay.

Buffy

[Robyn]

Welcome to our little home for wayward boyz and grlz.  Just listen to what the nice therapist has to say, and everything will be alright.

SERIOUSLY, it sounds from your intro as if some healing may be in order.  Happens to a lot of us.  An experienced gender therapist/counselor is well worth the expense and time.  The best early present one can give himself/herself.

And we can help, too. 

Robyn the Elder

[Hazumu]

Hi, Evan!

This is a good place to ask the questions you'vebeen asking yourself for years...

I am sure that I will say a bit more later. As of right now, I am at a complete loss for words. I just know that surgery is not really somthing that I would want.The way that my mind works, I would remind myself everyday that this is just "pretend"

Dang, I know the feeling.  'Pretend' is what kept me in denial for years.  But I always secretly wished for a way to be real, fully 100% female.  My epiphany came when I realized that 'pretend' is as real as it's ever going to get for me in this life (and I have a sneaking suspicion that, even if there is a next life, I'll never know if I ever finally got what I wanted.)

What helped was the realization that somehow i ended up with a gender organ (the brain) that's as female as the next girls'.  My mom actually dropped some strong hints that she'd taken DES (a synthetic estrogen,) while pregnant with me.

Well, 'pretend' or not, my life is very real to me.  As I proceed down transition, more and more stuff is getting easy and comfortable and -- FINALLY!!! -- dropping into place.

And, by the way, my breasts, thought still small, are plenty real 

Welcome to Susan's!  You're amongst friends 

Karen