So, over the summer I some how ended up coming out to my dad.. He was a bit drunk and emotional and he called me over to apologize about how he used to act when I was a kid.. Back when I simply thought I was gay he was far from supportive. Even got a bit abusive at times. But ever since he and mom sepparated Hes become a much better person.
Durring our conversation he told me that he just wants me to be happy no matter what. So, with the help of my sister, I explained how I wanted to transition. Hes very concerned with my decision, because hes worried if I'm sure enough about it, and worries about how hard it will be for me. But He promises that hes got my back no matter what because he loves me.
A couple weeks later I went ahead and wore a little make up and some of my nicer earrings while I was visiting home, and he looked genuinely happy to see me being myself, even complimented me on my color coordination! lol
This went so much better then I expected! I mean, growing up I got hit when he found some of my sister's clothes in my room, and was constantly told how I need to act like a man. [My father was very religious back then]
I decided that since I'm out to my dad, and have been to my brother and sister for years. I should tell mom. My mom is not very open minded still, and shes the type of christian that believes anything other then 'straight' genetic male and 'straight' genetic female lifestyles is sin..
I explained to her that I planned to begin seeking a psychiatrist for gender therapy. Because being physically male was why I am always so depressed. Her response is that I need to pray for god to make me happy with myself, because god is the only way to happiness..
I did my best not to laugh. She knows I don't believe in that stuff.. I explained that I am an adult and that I wasn't asking for her permission to be myself. Just giving her a fair warning of what was to come.
Her response is pretty much what I expected. She may not support me but I have my Dad, his girlfriend, my brother and sister, plus my dads' friends that have always been like big brothers to me.
So! Now that I'm out I can actually look forward to being home for the holidays! No more hiding my nail polish, no more having to wear my ugly boy clothes!
