Hello I'm new here *obviously* lol so I guess I'll start off by talking a little bit about my self. My birth name is Jason although online I go by the name "Soul" for friends and "Tina" to everyone else never my birth name except work although I do like it, I don't find it fitting. I have a cheerful and bubbly personality also a little childish for my age and maybe sometimes I can get annoying, I think. Uhh I guess I could tell you about my looks
I have a kind of darkish brown hair and hazel eyes, I'm about 5'11" in height and weigh some where around 135 to 140 *haven't checked in a while*.
right now I seem like I'm just
ing let me get to the reason why I'm here
. I am here because I know deep down I'm not meant to fill the role of a male, not just because I think both some guys and girls look good (sexy)
*our secret* which I haven't told anyone, but if it was just that I would think I was just bisexual. I have always loved to think of my self as a female and try to act like one on many many occasions also I found my self dressing in my sisters cloths when shes gone out with the family all the time *shes around the same age* and secretly bought some of my own. I also really enjoy the feminine cutesy rooms with the nice colors and soft.. well soft everything lol but I just thought of my self being messed up at some points in time till I learned about transsexuals. So I spent a few years thinking about the possibilities and this year actually looking up more information about it and trying to learn more cause it makes sense. I have read a lot and heard about the steps you have to take to get your gender changed and that would be something I would love to do I believe very strongly that I will feel right and not so out of place. I'm 21 and would like to get it done ASAP because I missed being one during my childhood and my teen years I don't want to miss being a female for half my life
. I'm also very emotional like if I am talked down to or yelled at I start tearing now that is both sex's but I forgot to mention that
I hate that part about me I wish I could be tougher emotionally.
Okay now here's the problem
first is that my family sees me as me now, a male and my bets are they will not accept me as anything else so if anyone has helpful hint/tips around this still being apart of the family that would be cool if not I don't mind keeping my distance.
Second is a big one I have a fiancee because I really do love her the way she is but I feel like this is something I have to do. I don't know if she will stick by my side or leave me and it scars me. any helpful advice?
I'm here to learn, make friends, get help and try to give help.
OH LOL just when I thought I was done
does any one happen to know of a good psyc in the Kitchener/Waterloo area (Ontario) if there is any and maybe their wage cause I work full time so I'm looking for a place that isn't a long distance away seeing how I get really tried after work and don't own a car as of yet.
3 pictures of me dressed as F *I don't have a big selection
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My Hairs a MESS! AH!
