Depression :'(

[AdamT]

I keep feeling depressed.

Im at a loss, i dont know where to go, i just want to be myself but i cant because i dont know where to go or who to see to get things moving.

Il get kicked out if my mum realizes im actualy going though with anything and then il have no where to live.
Yes, ive tried speaking to my mum but when she is more worried about her reputation and what people will think of her i just dont see the point in involving her in any way at all. My mum obviously doesnt want to support.

I dont know how i would find somewhere else to live while i start the whole process but i need somewhere and i dont know what to do.

I also just want to practice with makeup and trying on womans clothes but yet again i cant do this because im still at home. I want to go clothes shopping and go out with guys and have a body i want, i just want my life

Everything i want to do i cant because its either not socialy accepted or i live at home, i just need a place where i can be free and do what i want but i cant. ive felt unhappy about my body since i was old enough too. Over the years that unhappiness has grown until i feel like this

The effect of all these things is depressing me and i really am finding it hard to cope, i only want to be myself and live the rest of my life but i cant when there are barriers in the way. Please someone help, i want a solution that will stop me from feeling depressed.

Thanks for reading x

[Sarah_Faith]

Ill start off with a hug. *hug*

It's tough, it really is. Everyone here has been in the same / similar situation at some stage or still is.

I find it's a different kind of depression. It's an unbearable longing, a need, a misery inducing feeling of being unable to solve it.

Answers I cannot always provide, but I can tell you that your in the right place to get an ear of someone who understands exactly how you feel. Were all here for the same reason and all here for each other. We need help and we give it.

Keep up the hope

[AdamT]

Thanks

and i will keep up the hope

[Diane Elizabeth]

             I will "Play it Forward" and give you a "HUG" as well.  Some day I might need one.  It is hard to get understanding from those around because we are in the closet to them or they just can't understand the feelings that we go through.  Its been a few weeks since I wes in my last depression funk.  I am not sure how I managed to pull through it.  It can be surprising how we get through it when it hits.  But those "HUGS"  can make a difference.  God loves us all. 

[AdamT]

Its the thought that counts
Thanks x

[NDelible Gurl]

I could use a hug too!

{{{hugs for everyone}}}

Adamt. I feel you are in the right step reaching out. When I was in my teens we didn't have the internet and I live in a rural area. No one to reach out to resulted in a pretty empty college-life of hiding in the closet and fears I would be found out. Everyone knew. I just didn't know that they did so the only person I was fooling was myself.

Your sitch is a little different. I'm not the grand poobette of advice but keep coming to the forum and give yourself alot of credit! You've made it this far so you're obviously doing something right

Hang tight!

[AdamT]

I have a few friends who know, all girls and they support me more than my family does becuase they dont support at all.

Even through the pain i feel, the life i want to grab seems so far away, through all the trials il face i shall remain strong for myself so that i may one day live the life of the female that ive felt like all my life.

It feels like comming here was a really good choice, alot of supportive and friendly people who don't judge, have experianced all of this and offer advise.

Thanks, Everyone X

And *hug*